pamperedLOVE

Curses and blessing.

2009-08-12T21:10:00.000-07:00

BLOGGER IS READY FOR USE. FTW. but too bad i have moved

BLOODY RELINKED ME .AMIGOS.

anw, i spend a nice bday w beloveds. & with wishes especially send from overseas from brother(*)

I ma very happy girl now!

thanks darlings.(:

But the only regret is that . He never wish me anything. I dont think he wna anything to do w me.

BLOODY SWEET TALK, karma gets to you somedays`

2009-07-22T06:22:00.001-07:00

blogger is giving me thousands of problem! will be changing blog peeps.
(:
heywens.wordpress.com.
Guess i will see you there.amigo(s)
Please relink if ya my friend.
Loves .

2009-07-21T23:33:00.000-07:00

blogger is giving me problems. cant post photos and everything. Gnna have livejournal or smthg soon
ideas please?
should i get livejournal or wordpress , or live ? Argg. dang !

2009-07-21T06:44:00.001-07:00

hellos.

Dear Dog.

2009-07-18T23:29:00.001-07:00

Me with dearest charger.( cute )

Srsly. I really got nothing to post now ! hahaha

Celebrating my bro bday now now nw !

will be posting l8r at night then, loves darlings.

搜狗音乐盒 - If I Were A Boy

2009-07-14T04:08:00.000-07:00

搜狗音乐盒 - If I Were A Boy: "But you're just a boy
You don't understand
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy"

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I love this song , howeever. i sing it . and it got destroyed =x hahaha
okay. set off w my date w sister winx . Post when i m back(: bye
&sometwo. i know krean songs . SS501 only. lol =x

2009-07-13T08:17:00.000-07:00

好丑的照片。（2）熊和我（1）

今天真是太多感想要post了。所以一天连续Post好多上来。
发生了好多事，有时真的好难相信任何人。
就连最好的朋友都不知几时会在你身上插你一刀。
生活中就有好多例子。
可怜，悲惨吧。今天静了心，想好多。
想我和Sister友情会长久吗？不是我怀疑或什么，只是天下没有不散的宴席。
友情越长久，离开时会不会更痛？
我。。不。。想。。再。。尝。。试。。心痛。
但好相怎么跑都跑不掉。天造人难倒是要我们尝试各种心痛？

今晚，而外的冷，也特别的让人想掉泪。
憋了好久的泪。装了好久的笑。
好难想起上次大笑是何时的事了。可能是Ahjo 生日时，也可能是他还在我世界时。
好久了。
心里好烦。好烦。
有时，几根手指就能算得出我朋友了。
好少。为什么？是我的错吗？
可能吧？一直都以为是别人的错可能是要让我自己开心点。
现在连找朋友都变得好难，我在搞什么啊？

明天没学校，本来好开心可以逛街。但延迟了，
明天又是一个人过。
没麻将，没出去。不用化妆。哈哈。
算保养皮肤吧！
好吧，我去睡了。
哈哈。长的post 。慢慢读吧。

Harpers island , sports & something else.

2009-07-13T04:36:00.000-07:00

Chris survillian. otherwise known as scully.

He is hot man !

He is knwn for his show newly air on cbs in america, channel5 in spore. etc..

Show name : Harper`s island.

**WATCH IT GUYS (: I rate it 4 stars thou , cos some parts was not logical @ all.

oh damn, he got no balls ! +.+ i hate him bloody old odd. man. thou his picture here is quite a handsome old lad. but . nonono.

Anw just a brief post.

went to school tday , was late for maths. very sorry about it . truthfully. however in th afternoon i skip maths again.--"

blablabla ____ all about school. ( lazy to elaborate. babababa)

and thn went home, bus-ed home w ling , talked about stuffs. yea, maybe i shouldnt think so much about it . well. its over like i said.

Then home sweet home, Camwhore. see harper`s island. and i m currently on th last ep now.

So exciting can !

& yes. i got a fucking shock @the end. ohmy my , don wna be the spoiler , see it yourself guys(:

yea. anw, wed i got test bla. and i think i m gna revise tmr.

Last minute revision, hope i can pass. & tmr or mayb when , it will be sisters day out / Night out. i m so excited about it.

and yea. i m having images of doing sports now. I want to blade, Cycle, wakeboard.

There are countless. i m a sporty girl @ heart. heh(:

okay. Ciaos.

Harpers island. & sports.

2009-07-13T04:33:00.000-07:00

Lot1 . Marsball. And xinru

2009-07-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

+ = ( Yummyyy)

Anw , tday went skl @ like 1 , Cause morning lesson was cancelled.

It was a waste of time for afternoon too. Cause initially there was presentation then it was cancelled due to many objections.

Selfish people . waste of time. However Mrs mok was kind enough to let us present only to her.

some of 2f01 peeeps stay back fr us too. however . comp was fucked up --"

anw. it was nice for F01 people to stay that extra minute for us(:

A great thanks for them.

Went str home after that , thn waited for xr to msg me , and wait for her to prep. blablabla.

And off we go to lot1 . Was late for meeting her again.

Sorry sis.

And off we go. head for our late dinner @ kfc. Talked. and off we go to buy our cravings ! -

Fried Marsball.

The service was damn bad luh. but still we tolerate for th good food sake.

oh damn. i m so in love w fried mars balls nowwww!

Bought dougnuts for bro too =D

then headed off to slack. and well. shared heartfelt talks too

some was hilarious, and some was well. heartfelt .

tday talks change me into a better person. thanks sis(:

Anw . wednesday would be another sisters day out , To shopping.

Sorry WSH. i m missing you again But i would catch up (:

hahahaaaa.

on a heavier note

Its late @ night. 3am.

and . currently i m on a rollercoaster feelings.

tears are threatening to drop , why would you talk to me ?

you would never . i knew it . okay. done . bye.

My worries.

2009-07-09T06:25:00.000-07:00

+ = Cravings (:

Now now , i feel so sorry for myself.
i couldnt help not being me just nw. i m so sorry i flare up at *you for nothing.
you did your best @ comforting me , and all i say was " dont act like you know everything about me"
i know i m unreasonable. i know you tried your best @ cheering me up before finally "exploding" on me.
but you do not really know how i feel right?
when sometimes all i need was you by my side. you turn away .
for her. for them.
when have you turn them off for me?
i told you once i love myself too much . thats why i cant accomodate you , and your complicated life. its still the same now.
sometimes is not only th words you say , you must keep them too.
how many times have you said you are coming to fetch me from work. but end up i m going home alone!?
How many times have you say you wanted to watch blablabla w me . and you ended telling me you had urgent matters to attend to.
. its enough. so much for these days . thou i dont deny you bring joy to me.
but sometimes joy and love dont really matter as much as time and trust does.
Anyway. things had taken a step to th worse.
i dont really wish fr anything now. including you .
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IS MAKES ME SICK.
losing money makes me sicker .
thy charge me fr .........* . makes me feel like Puking on them.
Now now , i feel so sorry for myself.
Suckers.

flowersBite. S.I.M and BLOODY IS .

2009-07-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

Okay tough times is officially over.

IS i mean.

i dont have to face them anymore.

gotta do the Hyunjoong famous shake dance thing !**

well losing money.

thy enjoy it . but not me. Cause i m th odd one out.

fuck it . But well over is over.

Gootta say i m the bitch

cause i m here bitching god knws how many fuck loads about them , yet thy still think i m th innocent one . =DD

i wish to blog all THINGS out. but god knows who will read. so fine. i will just rant it to my sisters on th phone l8r !

tata. i hate them but they do not know it .

S.I.M . i swear i m gonna tk bus home frm there everyday from now onwards.

bla lalalalala. i am on a flowerbite spree now.

who gna stop me? You?

hahahahahaha .

boys and girls.

2009-07-07T09:46:00.000-07:00

HEY MAN . WHAT GENERATION ARE WE IN NOW ?!
tell me about it.

Girls see guys , is counted as Huazhi (Flowersbite) Boys see girls , is normal.
Girls cannot take guys number , people say shameless . boy tk girls number Normal.
Girls cannot swear , people say ahlian. Boys swear people think cool .
Girls cannot wear too sexy . people say lok. Boys wear people think sexy .
Girls cannnoot earn as much as boy , people say nt respectful
Girls cannot do this. cannot do that ,
so girls not human , boy is . sometimes world is that unfair.
damnit .
okay i dont knw why i m ranting so much on.
its just Inspiration to blog on th unfairness okay.
anw. sleeeping time. proj presentation tmr, Wish me luck (:

Anw had a nice day out w sis .
no pictures as all of us was slacking outside mac, (:

2009-07-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

Troubles after Troubles.
How long do i need to be tormented before i finally get on th good luck track again.

Been Having insomnia during holidays break.
its a torture. Tired yet cant sleep.
played ds the whole hols. Surgical unit is a good game
Okay past the holiday. Lets go to th main topic.
- I get fucking shit marks for all my ct results. I am fuckin not satisfied.
gna buck up.
and yes. i shd be . not skipping sch for this half sem anymore. hope i can hold on to my promise this time ! (((:
- AND currently i m working @ sushi tei. heh . thanks to em girl. Work was hard but fun.
customers was friendly @ the very least. alot of backstabs and selfish co-worker thou.
secretly wishing that thy will burn in hell.
- AND I AM GOING TO DO IS PROJ THIS SAT. bloody is mate is not replying my time to go --" hatttte *
- And i met a certain someone again. very least he made me happy . But too bad. his life is too complicated. I really cant give up my peaceful life to accomodate w him.
well. thats maybe all folks. OH LASTLY . blogger is being a bitch not letting me upload picts here. well "BOTAK" POST presented.

special.

2009-06-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

In another more 10 mins it will be your birthday.
Happy happy 19th birthday . to "you"
its a sad thing i could not wish you directly. well. Hopefully you see this.
(:

2009-06-27T00:08:00.000-07:00

A song delicated for you . xxxxx.
我的心怎么了。
ga'ji'mal'rae'do' meom'cweo'seo'rae'do'
00:22.12]neo'reul' hyang'hae'ga'neun' nae' mam'in'geo
00:26.19]dalh'ji'do' anh'ni' jul'ji'do' anh'ni'
00:31.07]wae'i'ri' nae' sa'rang'eun'
00:35.12]cu'eog' ha'na'ha'na' se'go' ddo' se'neu'ra'
00:40.10]mam'eun' han'si'do' swi'jil'mos'hae'
00:44.48]ga'nu'gi'do' deun' jim'man' doel'ten'de'
00:49.24]wae' nan' beo'ri'ji'do' mos'ha'neun'ji'
00:52.92]jeong'mal' ga'seum'i' eo'ddeoh'ge' dwaess'na'bwa'
00:58.04]nun'meon' sa'rang'e' ba'bo'ga' dwaess'na'bwa'
01:02.31]o'jig' han'gos'man' mae'il' han'gos'man'
01:07.06]neo'ran' seul'peun' bic'eul' ba'ra'bo'da'
01:11.54]nun'mul'saem'ma'jeo'do' go'jang'i' nass'na'bwa'
01:15.75]ja'ggu' nun'mul'i' meoj'jil' anh'a'
01:19.65]geu'jeo' han'ma'di'man' sa'rang'hae' han'ma'di'man'
01:25.54]nae'ge' mal'hae'ju'myeon' an'doe'ni'
01:34.23]son'eul' bbeod'eo'bwa'do' a'mu'ri' bul'reo'do'
01:38.21]neo'neun' nae'ge'seo' meol'gi'man' hae'
01:42.31]a'peun' sang'ceo'man' doel' sa'rang'il'ten'de'
01:47.40]wae' nan' ji'u'ji'do' mos'ha'neun'ji'
01:51.76]jeong'mal' ga'seum'i' eo'ddeoh'ge' dwaess'na'bwa'
01:56.08]nun'meon' sa'rang'e' ba'bo'ga' dwaess'na'bwa'
02:00.73]o'jig' han'gos'man' mae'il' han'gos'man'
02:05.07]neo'ran' seul'peun' bic'eul' ba'ra'bo'da'
02:09.29]nun'mul'saem'ma'jeo'do' go'jang'i' nass'na'bwa'
02:14.24]ja'ggu' nun'mul'i' meoj'jil' anh'a'
02:18.49]geu'jeo' han'ma'di'man' sa'rang'hae' han'ma'di'man'
02:23.71]nae'ge' mal'hae'ju'myeon' an'doe'ni'
02:28.55]ni'ga' us'eu'myeon' na'do' haeng'bog'ha'dan'
02:31.73]geo'jis'mal'ro' nal' wi'ro'hae' bo'ji'man'
02:36.92]ni'ga' hyang'hae'seon' gos' nae'ga' a'ni'ra'seo'
02:41.19]oe'ro'un' nun'mul'i' heul'reo'
02:43.78]jeong'mal' sim'jang'i' eo'ddeoh'ge' dwaess'na'bwa'
02:51.98]deun' sa'rang'e' mi'cyeo'beo'ryeoss'na'bwa'
02:56.63]gaj'ji'do' mos'hae' ij'ji'do' mos'hae'
03:01.65]neo'reul' ha'ru'ha'ru' gi'da'ri'da'
03:05.78]neo'mu'na' geu'ri'weo' tal'i' nan'geon'geo'bwa'
03:09.54]neo'reul' neo'mu'na' sa'rang'hae'seo'
03:14.10]geu'jeo' han'ga'ji'man' ni' ma'eum' han'ga'ji'man'
03:19.11]nae'ge' na'nweo'ju'myeon' an'doe'ni'
03:22.75]na'reul' sa'rang'ha'myeon' an'doe'ni'

2009-06-25T06:54:00.000-07:00

After the release of their 2nd full-length album at the end of July,

the boys will begin the first leg of their concert tour in

Seoul on 1st August. From there, they will be flying to

Japan, China, Hong Kong, Taiwan and Thailand, etc for their concert tour until the end of the year.

1st, 2nd August - Seoul, S. Korea

13th August - Tokyo, Japan

The above are confirmed.

The below are pending actual dates.

October - China, Hong Kong, Taiwan

November - Thailand

December - Malaysia, Singapore. (credits : allkpop)

believe it or not. i am so going to see `em .

whos On for it ? tell me .

Okay ss501 aside.

___________________________________________

Yes, we finally hav our all girls outing ytd. ( Sisters)

it was just a trip to suntec city , and esplanades. However. that really makes my day.

A fruitful day spend w them .

ended w much camwhores and hurry-ing. As jojo is rushing home.

shares talks and jokes. gossips w them.

amazing . (: i love days out like that.

pending dates to be confirmed is on monday . another sister nights out ?

confirm asap okay .

2009-06-18T23:14:00.000-07:00

I am so so so curious over this handsign.

hahaha, inside joke w sis over this handsign when we headed over to town to buy jo`s present.

sibey cute them. and yes , this handsign stands fr the infamous "fuck you"

thanks to some cute lil girl inside IT fair. i got to learn new trend.

hahaha, cant deny i m old alrd.

lol.

Sometimes looking back . i feel that i m old. matured.

somethings change. somethings forever do not.

like characters and some friendships.

they would last forever. dont they?

_____________________________________________________

seriously. ytd is the last time i m making any first move . suit you boy,

frever dont talk better okay.

i would just act like i didnt ever know you.

SENTOSA , JO BIG DAY(:

2009-06-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

(frigin sun shine till cant open eye ! ) >> but w shades all of us can smile nw(:

( Blocked Xinru. tk 1 )

uhhuhhh, all of us finally (:

____________________________________________________________

Finally part one of the pictures is posted up .

well. Firstly a very happy bday to my lovely sis - Jocelyn yee.

is her 18th birthday , finally she is of legal age for her club, liquor and more things.

18 of age , and yes my lil girl can finallly labelled as grownups.

congratualations.

believe it or not , i`ve seen this girl transform&grow prettier day by day .

to my bff: i love you , cherish this magical friendship /sistership betwweeen us.

Happy Birthday Once again (:

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Anw. Spend like 2 days discussing her bday w xr and winx.

wanted to make this her most unforgettable one.

and . plans was to go sentosa then a movie.

sounds like simple right?

Actually is simple and nice , we enjoyed it , thats all that matter.

Meet around 11 w xr and winx first . at 188 bus-stop. was late cos i FORGOT jo`s present .

nb , forgetful me--"

then rush home to tk. thn rush to meet `em.

meet jo @ vivo. kinda rush , went to buy movie tickets

- Ghost of ex-girlfriends past

then we didnt told jo picnic plans was surprise fr her. she even thought that we are bringing that truckloads of food into th cinema ,

OMYHOLYGOD. see how naive and cute is my sissy. =x aiyo!

then ,head over to sentosa . talktalktalks non-stop.

Funny thing happen over in th monorail.

Random guy: Hey , can you please help me tk a pict of me ?

Jiale : HAHAHA ( laughing @ smth sis says) orh.

Random guy : Posing ,

Jiale snaps it .

Jiale still messing w the cam finding th photo fr winx to see.

Random guy stone watching jiale meddling w his camera.

Xinru: HELLO , 你们要Invade他的privacy ar？

Jialeandwinnie : Oh yahor. Hands over th cam

Random guy : eh. thanks . **still half-stoning

LOL

After that , we sat whole round of siloso tram , when our location is palawan beach .

oh damn, so suagu lorrr.

but nevertheless it was fun , rounds and rounds.

Finally eat and camwhore time.

give jo her firsst surprise .

- Scrapbooook w pictures , there is even kimbun too.

(((((:

she was so so so in love w that book la. can say she see upteem time alr.

( SUCCESS IN FIRST SURPRISE)

then jojo suddenly hand us her letter for us . actually nt suprise for me alr ,

WINNIE LA! xS

hahaha but am stil very happy she make the effort to give us things too. and its her bday mind you. jojo is the best , i m sure(:

all of us was surprise and happy. thrs proof fr this ( Pictures up)

and then begin our sentosa. sit there chit chat , eatttttt. and camwhore.

Then when 4plus came , Left sentosa . went vivo fr our movie

Touching seh the movie. cried like 3 times and night came !

More surprise cming up.

post tonight w the pictures.

Once again HAPPY 18 JOJO(:

and in lik 7 hours . its going to be a brand new day.

And jo will be likeeee18181818. BUT NT HER BDAY ANYMORE

well.... enjoy th moments w your family kkkay(:

love you bloody lots sis(:

Sisters. Korea , and sadness.

2009-06-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

(SS501 Without leader )

I just finish ep on romantic sky w ss501.

it was definitely hilarious .( As always w baby )

And that show seriously make me wna go to korea soon.

seoul is like shopping paradize Nd , jeju is so beautiful .

i m sure sissys will be like , " WE CAN CAMWHORE NON-STOP There"

haha okay i m sure i would be the first to say that.

oh god , i seriously cant wait for korea trips w sissys(:

miss em` all like hell.

been so long time since we 4 gathered.

and to be honest , i dont even have our 4 pictures.

, but nevertheless , when we do gather. its definetely crazy girls night out ,

definetely camwhoring non -stop and updating about our lives , guys and whatsoever.

. sometimes i cant stop thinking when would all these end?

Our friendship i meant , not that i want it to end .

But . for me , nothing is forever . so when i hav gr8 friends like them , i tend to treasure more. tend to be mushier . whatever.

but sissys assurance like " strong friendships like us do not need frequent meetups as our heart will always hv each other"

Sweet things like that always make me smile brightly.

Assurance always brings my thinkings to an end.

Sometimes when i just browse through their blogs. friends blogs whosoever.

i know my sissys are having great friends out there. Cliques that enjoys each other company.

to be honest i have always envious of them having great cliques. and then i think back to mine.

. i m speechless.

just feel a overwhelming sadness coming over me .

what have i not done good? or probably cliques and my thinking are really off.

)):

whatever.

2009-06-09T23:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i really wish to go back to the past.
i have regretted alot.
& i really wanna try to change everything,
probably i will be a better person.

Read somethings on internet that made me super pissed off yesterday ,

have been thinking what to say to the "post-er" of that ,

Cant seem to find the webpage tday , but instead got alot of 收获。

GOT MYSELF ALOT OF BABY PICTURES.

oh my holy god ,he is so damn perfect la! ((((:

cant wait for ss501 to come spore soon,

you bet i will go , Yes i will. even if i donknow korean, i m learning now !

frm youtube videos la!

awwwww-ness.

i think i m back to watching videos again.

heading out soon.

oh yea, hope my pimple recover faster. itchy hands --'

Common test week.

2009-06-05T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hello peoplee. been so hectic this week, with common test coming up & debarment result going to be out fr my Qs.

. mood hasnt been that good lately. but but but . thanks to my sisters meeting me as often as they can. been meeting w different of them this week, but ru is too busy ,

well its okay. i understand.

Debarment has dealt a great blow to me , i never thought i would get myself in this kind of trouble . ever.

and i m thankful to daddy who always stand by me, even through this.

such an embarrasment to him ,to go school and beg fr my forgiveness.

its not even his business .

Thanks dad . i promise i will make you proud of me.

My life sucks now , and its thanks to me , my ownself.

Like what mommy say. your life is not suppose to be lik tt , everything is you make it out w your own hands.

Sorry mommy daddy.

i m a disappointment.

&sis , thanks fr all your kind words. & Of cos my cliques that make me laugh .

Thanks people. would update you on mon again.

i still miss you ,

sometimes i hope its always you , to pick me when i fall.

the past is always fresh in my mind , its been 2 years. everything changed.

you got your own girl , own life. own happiness.

i Will never go and destroy your happy world.

thou i really wish to ,

but . i wont.

its just that i miss you , just that i miss those happy times.

those happy smiley faces we always have,

those faces you gave when we are quarelling , those jokes you say when i m bored,

. i miss you . but you are never going to be here again.

I wish you forever happiness.

2009-06-01T23:12:00.000-07:00

Adults . tsk.
what do i understand.
Nothing. except most of them are like two headed snakes
Sometimes i m thinking , what am i stil doing around in this world.
Fuck up life. Fuck up Studies.
Fuck up Everything.
I wish i had the lil ` courage to end it.
shit .

black and white.

2009-05-31T09:54:00.000-07:00

I hope you would see this , i Want you to see this !

( Sorry amigos , tday post would be damn emo , angry , whatever angry word you can think , so sorry , no comments needed , nor pityful glances needed. thanks )

Seriously what is bad about me , what happen to you ?

what am i to you?

someone , some girls , random bloody freaks that you would talk to when you are bored

some bloody girls that you dont even bother to hong . ( if you are one ) .

i seriously am not , and tired of being that bloody girl.

you dont treat me hot and cold. you dont control my life .

bloody Fuck. If you dont like me talking to you , dont talk to me when you are bored.

nobody in this whole fucking world for you to talk to ?

i dont like this feeling of being there for you when you re bored, and then just fuck off when you dont need me anymore.

i dont like to sob over my losses.

tell me. what is that she got that i dont?

fuck you.

i hate you , and i hate you in your bad mood. and i even hate you most when all the time i m feeling sad , and angry is all about you ,

and you got ways to make me just forget about it with just plain stupid conversation.

but . somehow i never got that courage to tell you it is you i m angry with all along.

Seriously . i hate your bad mood. i hate your bloody God damned long excuses.

can you be truthful to me , can you let me see what you really are.

. who you really are .

_______________________________________________________

Aaron Blog. Quiz.

2009-05-28T04:35:00.000-07:00

( overdued pict @ Jo house )

I read , yan ya lun blog just now . Yea cause mainly i m bored

& i find out what he post was just like talking out on teens perspective on love ,

It was kinda interesting ,

so if anyone is interested you may go see his blog,

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/arronbubest
No Doubt he is a cutie w knowledge.

Anw , went to skl tday , skip QS again, my heavenly god.

i think i m so going to get debarr-ed .

but , whatever. i just think going to QS tday is a waste of time , as thr is WSH&maths quiz l8r on in th afternoon , therefore , i just slpt and . woke up @ 9 to study abit .

then headed to skl.

Two Quizes. and i think i did okay.

Hope so.

nothing much t post.

whatever.

Forever my Ass.

2009-05-23T07:55:00.000-07:00

.
你到底懂不懂，很多事情往往尽在不言中。
你对我，
现在，变了吗？
友情，你选择不要了。我总觉得自己是个死赖着，缠着你们的。
明知道，但我还是选择假装。
对你们，我到底算什么。
真的累了。也不想再这样下去了。
朋友，那句话是废的嘛。
累了，厌倦自己被你们当笑话。
开心的时候，什么都说永远，都说好。
。。结果其实。。。 ( fill in th blanks )

Friends, i dont need anymore. Dont promise what you cant do.
Dont say too much as you might not do that much .
selfish , self-centered . Jealousy.
Doesnt that makes up to evrybody in this world.
cause i dont deny even i m those kind of people , Selfish , Attitude , jealous , Envy of others success .
yes thats me , i dont deny .
but do you admit thats you too ?
Please. dont tell me how good we are , because its simply not the way now.
What happen to those appreciative words , What the fuck happen to forever friends.
In any other case , Meaning , I do not need anymore good friends then who i have nw.
stick through me thick and thins.
i cn only name a few.
Thats hw pathetic i can be,
Dont lie and say you would be there. Because when things happen.
YOU ARE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND.
you ignore me , you saw me being bullied and you didnt even lift a finger , You saw me in my worst and . what did you do? Nothing .
JUST SHUT UP .AND DRIVE ( whatever_ i couldnt want to curse my friend )

Anw people i m not her knn shit 奶妈。
IF . IS LOST , I DIDNT KILL . so dont come ask me whr . is . I DONT BLOODY HAVE A CLUE. . dont tell me , . didnt come meet me , I DONT KNOWWWWWW .

Happy Day 。

2009-05-22T08:56:00.000-07:00

Heh , First time my blog is flooded w picts !

So yea. Cause tday is E-learning . didnt go school.

Then suggest mommy to msia . as i wan to chng my disc.

Waited for bro to return Home . & off we go.

Mummy friend came along too (: Friendly Aunty (:

First stop was to chng money . And i m so blur i Forgot to bring my money to chng --"

Then of cos mommy give me money laaa. Duh --' got a scolding like ..

but nvm , didnt spoil my moooood ((:

Then mom drop us at plaza inn to get my disc chg while she goes t the market thr.

she claim that th things thr are like CHEAP!

so.. Went to chg disc , and thn went to KFC t wait for mother .

camwhore w my darling bro there.

Special thanks to dearest christine.

Then went to play arcade there.

FUNNNN LIKE NOBODY BIZ-NESS.

((((:

Waited for mommy to come and fetch us , thn head off to eat my 三楼米粉。

It was superb. thou th shop was not really nice renovated. But all the food ther is nice & Of cos . quality svcs.

. Then headed home ... (:

HAPPPY DAYY .

Thoug You are now . ( Fill in the dot ) I couldnt bring myself to talk to you.

The same thing happen over and over again. And then one day when i ask.

you will say you didnt see or what-so-ever.

Its beginning to tire me out.

Sometimes. Things are pretty obvious. why cant i just bloody accept it .

If you only find me when you`re bored. Please. i encourage you not to.

Its not helping me nor you.

And yes .I m trying to let myself go For the sake of you.

I do not want to cause anything to you.

nor i want you to know anything i feel about you now.

Stay calm please Boonjiale .

Its ending , and after so much and so many days of hard work. Its still not helping anything

. 因为你我喜欢上我本来也不会留意的歌。

谢谢你。

我再也不想相信爱情，再也不会。

2009-05-21T22:36:00.000-07:00

가수: 꽃보다 남자 O.S.T Part.2 곡명: 어떡하죠 / Jisun (怎么做 / 智善)
앨범: 꽃보다 남자 O.S.T Part.2 그댄 너무
당연한 듯
오늘 내게
안부를 묻네요 난
그저 잘 지낸다 했죠 그댄 정말
날 너무 모르죠 ha 그대 없이도 내가
괜찮을 것 같나요 그대는 나 없이 괜찮나요
당신 없는 세상이 너무도 힘들어서 숨 쉬는
나를 원망했죠 어떡하죠 아직도 난 그대 한마디에
부서지는 하루를 살아요 그대 내게 말해 봐요 이러는게 나뿐인지 그대도 나처럼 하루가 아프고 또 아픈지 말해봐요 그대와 난 이미 너무 늦었나요 우리 다시 기회는 없나요 난 아직 그댈 생각해요 그댄 아마 알지도 모르죠 ha 결국 이런건가요 이렇게 끝인가요 그대는 이대로 괜찮나요 난 안될 것 같은데 그대 같은 사랑은 죽어도 내겐 없을텐데 어떡하죠 내 마음은 그대 아니면 누구도 안아줄 수 없을텐데 제발 나를 잡아줘요 알잖아요 나란 사람 아무리 애써도 그대를 지울 수가 없단걸 제발 나를 잡아줘요 어떡하죠 아직도 난 그대 한마디에 부서지는 하루를 살아요 그대 내게 말해봐요 이러는게 나뿐인지 그대도 나처럼 하루가 아프고 또 아픈지 말해봐요 그대와 난 이미 너무 늦었나요 우리 다시 기회는 없나요 난 아직 그댈 생각해요 그댄 아마 알지도 모르죠 ha 中文翻译：（
写得也是不错滴）
今天你是那样的理所当然
问我过得好不好
我当然回答过得很好
你真是太不了解我了
没有你我怎么可能过得好
没有我难道你过得很好吗
没有你的世界实在太辛苦
我怨恨自己竟然还在呼吸
如何是好
我现在还过着
因为你的一句话就会崩溃的日子
你告诉我
是我独自如此
还是你也同我一样
告诉我你是否也每天痛了又痛
你和我
已经太迟了吗
我们再也没有机会了吗
我还在想念着你
也许你也是知道的
结束就是这样吗
就这样结束了吗
这样子你都无所谓吗
我是无法做到的
此生我再也不会拥有对你那般的爱情
如何是好
除了你我的心再也无法容下别人
求你抓住我
你知道的
我这个人无论怎样努力
都无法把你忘记
求你抓住我
如何是好
我现在还过着
因为你的一句话就会崩溃的日子
你告诉我是我独自如此
还是你也同我一样告诉我
你是否也每天痛了又痛
你和我已经太迟了吗
我们再也没有机会了吗
我还在想念着你也许你也是知道的
_______________________________________
This is a nice song , & i m off to malaysia nowwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Love (:

Korean , Kim hyun Joong .

2009-05-20T19:53:00.000-07:00

Main Topic Here is 金贤重. Hope i didnt spell wrong !

He is . frigging handsome . ya (:

& bcos of him , i knew this awesome korean band ss501.

Nice song and handsome Team mates ! wooolalala.

they are enough to make a girl go gaga .

anw , came to school Tday Finally !!

Qs. And damn i came here to see my Boys over flower..

Didnt pay attention again! i m ... so going to flunk common test.

But heard its open book..

hope its easy! . tada. change class.

will post something l8r ! (;

byyyyyyyyye.

cheongsam -hamida.

ps:I WANT TO LEARN KOREANNNNNN.

2009-05-19T22:44:00.000-07:00

I think i know i am a Hopeless case.
I keep running from school.
arghh, fuckshit .. i think this sem , its hard not to flunk anymore.
my records are bad .
damnnnn-ed.
i tried not to run alrd, but envmt left me no choice.
& tml is th crucial day , if i run again, i would be dead.
i would be DEBAR!
arghhhh, Its a damn nightmare ,
probably studying is just not th thing fr me .

2009-05-17T05:28:00.000-07:00

boys over flowers.

Scream for Zhi hoou !

I LOVEEEEE ZHI HOU!

Shall do a proper posting next time.

so long (:

Dental & Day out w winnie teo (=

2009-05-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

Photos taken on , wednesday and , yes weather was hot like mad.

wonder why we went out ,

yea, initially was bcos sis do not want to go home after skl , She say like early.

so. i ask her to .. go w me to my dental appt.

Andddd. there we go , bcos it was still early , headed to starbucks for some drinks.

talk our heart out. and bla. i think i m superficial. but fuck it --" tts me btw.

& thn dental appt , talk shit w Dr dennis and we think its funny .

DD: why didnt you come for appt ytd?

Jiale : Cause i saw the sun so bright !

DD: then your eyes cant open , so you slpt back?

Jiale ; No , i m sort of like dracula after i got my pimples , i will melt in the sunnnnn.

DD : * sees my pimple and laugh like ...

LMAO !!

Anw then , went to help mommy took her pay over @ chinatown ,

Walk down w winx.

Say about talking everything under the sun, well. its something lik tt for us.

talk till breathless. finally reach ther.

Surprisingly , Andy took out my pay too. its .. like long ago or what, i forgotten it alr.

but well. its moneyyyyyy. Surpriseee! hahaha

and yea. home sweet home .

skipped QS tday again.

damn me , --"

and yea. i m playing l4d now . so long peepos.

oh yayaa. and pray for my pimple recovery REMEMBER HOR !!

Fuck it

2009-05-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

Bravo and a thousand claps to me ,
cos i just pang-seh my lovely jojo THANKS TO my motherfucking Huge Pimple !!
Fuck it ! --"
hope it will be well soon!
i keep rejecting dates & mj session cos of you, bloody motherfucking Pimple !
Hope you dont turn acne . find another better person to stay on okay!
i m un-faithful dont cha know , pimple ! GET OFF ME NOW!

Happy Mother day . i love you

2009-05-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother Day (: Belated.

Somehow , mother day was enjoyable.

thou it was just a simple dish cooked fr moms and some cheap presents.

nevertheless. everyone enjoyed.

And . yes to me , nothing beats the smiling faces of the whole family.

& jokes was shared among us when dinner came. Laughter filled the house,

and most of the jokes was start by me by my stupid questions.

Thou i was being laugh at , bt this was different .

i m bringing joy to my family . at that point of time. i felt so blessed to hv such a happy family(:

( like a compo . but lik i say i do not know how to write well. but all the feelings & emotions are definetly true )

. Anw tday i might be gng to sunset way and hv my brownie cravings stop.

i love my family & my sisters too.

hopefully we could hv a sisters day soon.

((:

Sometimes its a great blessing in someway.

Troubles make relationships go a step closer.

i love you mummy & Daddy(:

2009-05-07T04:53:00.000-07:00

( After getting my golden slips, i m as happy as a lark)

Wore my darling slipper to skl ytd ,

and teoahnie ( Which is winx ) Claim that it looks like termite eggs.

oh my friggin god

Dammn -ed heartbroken man !!!

Friends come and go.

the one who stay through thin and thick is the one , you should treasure th most.

i Just had this friendship conver w one of my guy friends.

And i found out amazingly, my guy friend do not hv any true bro. bcos he does not trust any of them.

and it keeps occuring to me that , itz safe to trust ?

what hv i been missing out?

what if one day , everything changes and , our friendship change too.

what will happen to all those promises through thick and thin go .

i m . so in a dillema now,

How can i know what .. others are thinking ,

i wish to know. and i want to know.

even it seems negative.

* Saw him twice.

First , in th lift lobby

Second , in a car , acted like some kids over idol .

super ps ;(

2009-05-06T00:17:00.000-07:00

Stay my baby - Amy diamonds.

Its a veryvery nice song from icarly.
yesyes.
anw, school was a bored tday,
i skip lessons again.
tday was a dillema to skip that GTE class.
part of me wanted to go , as i do not want to get low GPAs anymore. but thanks to th cooling rain, i slpt like pig after opening my eyes for "minutes" again.
--'
Went to hamdan class, but only after thy dismiss. cause waited for printing job to done.
damn comp --"
tday suay-est.
thought ther are going to be afternoon classes. but lecturer cancel it again.
wasted trip . bla.

& I m gna play mahjong now (: yupppppp ! HUAT AH! =D

ps : if you never tell i never know .
if you really ... ( fill in th blanks) me. can you please talk!!
you never try , you never know!
stop being such a ... ( Fill in the blank again )
(:

2009-05-02T05:32:00.000-07:00

( oh its me , but w big small eyes oh weelll )

Went out w jo to collect my pay over @ peoples park .

headed over early in the morning!

was late for meeting my dear girl. & she got pissed but its like okay, cos after awhile we are back to joker state again.

is like a fun day forever with this girllll (: hahah

And then after taking my pay ,

we went to have our late breakfast ,

Cost around 8plus lik tt , (:

wuhua right, and its like delicious!

Jo suggest to sit right infront of the sun. Like wtf!?

so like , okay , & from th start we was like sweating like pig la!

--"

but well. i was complaining all the way . &swearing ,

i bet if anyone pass by, they would think i m a spoilt brat .

but anw. thats their business. (ohwell)

AND after breakfast , went shopping! window shop i mean,

yesssss. fareast & then to wisma.

a number of thing caught my eye.

& jo and me is like planning to go @ tues to buy it !

heheh. ALL MINE AFTER TUES(((:

okay not all la. but at least th golden slips will be mineeee(;

heheh! =DD

then after that , jo send me to the bus stop & home sweet home.

i m always the one being naive & shit like that.

i cant stop,

cause if i do, there is no return ,

you will never Auto!!

2009-04-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

Jess , jo , winx & me .

Heys humans (: i m back t post .

; Didnt went to skl tday, mainly cos i m too lazy ,& abit over my own personal things.

head down to mac t meet up w jo.

reason: to return her havannias to her.

But. while in cab! i suddenly forgot that all along it was my black slips there !

sorry girl , & i m glad that you still came to meet me&hear my stupid story.

thanks girl.

did maths there.& i m glad i understand MOST of it (:

Finally!

And yes.

on a final note , i just want to say , i hate, detest people lying to me !

Humans, we are all humans, i just dont understand why some people are just so . lovable

while some others are so detestable !

ever wonder which category you fall in ?

2009-04-29T00:54:00.000-07:00

What would you do if someone you respected and love dearly lie to you.
Just like that.
Would you forgive , or hate "them" mre then anything else.
. what should i do to make you change. i know i m a burden.
oh fuck.
i hate myself more then anything,
ps: i cant smile now , not when i m about to lose everything i hold so dear .
____________________________________

Life sucks

2009-04-26T09:30:00.000-07:00

WARNING : ITS A UNFRIENDLY POST .
WELCOME TO LEAVE AT THIS POINT OF TIME (:

Evrything is wrong, wrong from head to toe.
wrong from the begining. i donknow how much i hv lost because of all these wishful thinking.
Forever , wishful thinking wont stop following me ,
no matter in terms of relationship , sistership and friendship.
bravo man jl, i think you hv just attained another level of creative thinking skills.
Fuck. i cant believe what CATS teach hv finally has it use.
.. why am i so creative!
what is all those stupid ship suppose to mean?
有福同享，有难同当？
shit man, those bloody promises.
seriously. in this time, this era , this earth!
who in the world will care about forever,
everybody is selfish.
And yes , even a smiling person , it doesnt mean safe.
People hv "double faces"
even the market auntie knows this.
Forever? or whatever "ships" are just blank words.
no one can promise anything.
wake me up ! its changing,
Everything is on its own route to destruction.
you will see the result just soon .
_____________________________________________

gosh , i think i hv just vent it out ! yes , i think i m ready for another day!
yet another masterpiece.

Sometimes even me , i think i m just pulling on a facade.
Treating people well doesnt mean they treat you the same way too
the sadest point is , when you treat someone as friend, but thy think otherwise
that is the most sad and shit thing that can happen
& no doubts. its on me .

2009-04-25T09:13:00.000-07:00

No news equate to good news.
wtf .
i m fucking emotional now.
God - Damned shit.
i think all these staying @ home shit hv turn me mad,
oh , and fyi , m hearing mad by neyo now.
no doubt its a good song.
Shittt. what rubbish m i talking ?!
whatever la! i hate life now.
and byebye !! );

2009-04-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

Brilliant , tday was my first day in school.

but 2nd year first day la !

school waas fine , met up bk for lunch to acc his first day @ lonely ngeeann(describe by him ) .muhahaha! =x

then went for class. as usual .

this sem teacher, got fierce , friendly & of cos my "favourite" "lovely" mr teo!

hwever tday he is really good. maybe like ling say, times show ?

hahaha, anw , after skl. went cca fiesta , Jo came to find me in np.

then go fiesta tgt , join tennis (: whoohahaha. lol

thn met bk and winx to hv starbucks. just slack and chat in particular anw =x

lol.

Anw, i think something is changing , bt none of us sense it .

but its pointless now anyway. we cant change things.

its a good thing i dont trust easily. maybe thats why , i always give up easily.

ciao ppl (:

Introverted.

2009-04-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

It has been a day ,
off my hp and staying mia from the world.
i didnt even know why i was doing that .
but it was fun, it was nice being alone and stuffs.
maybe , deep inside . its quite nice to be an introvert,

Day out with jo&yk! , picture upload next post .

2009-04-16T11:12:00.000-07:00

I hate this feeling right now ,

like a part of me is torn away ..

Helllo amigo(s) , had a great day today .

thanks to my sweet girl *jojo , & yk .

first thing in the early afternoon jo have to call & disturb my dream.

i was in a daze when she called.

: she was so hyper and happy telling me her lesson is over early!

but in my mind that time i was feeling so damn pissed off by calls & tons of msges disturbing my sweet dream alrd, so i was thinking, so , wtf is she telling me ?

then she then tell me : hey jl ah, i now come ur house hor?!

i was like . uh orh . then i went back to sleep.

&Importantly . the whole conv i was in sleeping mode --'

Then she came anw,

face-booked. & then to her house ,

then meet yk @ holland v for dinner.

Sushi tei , (:

this time ate 14 bucks only ! oh yes, i keep my budget ,

and then to pool-ed.

hahaha, my new hobby okay!(;

yk said that he will kelian anyone who play w me . hahaha and first he is gonna ke lian himself!

. but in my opinion , cindy girl & jojo is then the one , who is going to be let yk kelian. hahaha

(: AH GIRL . IF YOU SEE , LETS GO POOL OKAY(:

anw , sat&sun is working days!

(: hope all customers will be nice and good.

i thought i would survive not talking to you ~~anymore~~.

but obviously , it is crossing my limit.

& i m dying .

its 4 day now. kucf .

day out with emily girl .

2009-04-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

Emily girl (:

( Salt ice cream , uniquely nice .)

哈咯。went out w em girl on thursday.

went to town area to shop , eat & initially was to support edison new flim - The sniper.

but due to the money rise in tix price. we finally decide to abandon the plans and just shop around.

of cause , going out w her cant miss out on our all time favourite place.

- Sushi Tei .

& yes in my first time of life there we ate like never before. & it all amounts up to less then 20 bucks per person.

cheap?

i m going to bring family to eat soon i swear(:

Anw then headed to shop after we ate full .

bought one dress/top. i m not sure what to say of that piece of apparel i bought too.

cause i bought m size instead of my usual S size. as there are no more s avaliable and i really like it. so . M --"

oh btw , we saw some gorgeous china models. and one loook like janice man. OO .

AND . after that, sat mrt- to jurong.

meet up w xr , then headed to her workplace - Lan shop To play Left4dead w them ,

jq , xr ,and ahbee played.

a happy day spend indeed . ((:

Today- 11 APRIL 2009 on 8.30 pm!

MY DEAREST SISTERS WINX IS BACK FROM HER "WHAT I CALL LONG" CAMBODIA TRIP.

Miss you sister(:

2009-04-08T06:44:00.000-07:00

HELLO people , been ages since i last post here.

er was it ages? or was it just?

but nevermind , no one reads anyway.

so anyway, in my boring Days. found one fabulous website.

http://dearricky.xanga.com/weblog/

if anyone is free, you can go visit yi xia(:

Anyway. days was fine. & i m going out w em girl tomorrow again .

yes. for shopping , eating , & fun! of cos. not to forget camwhoring too (:

okay , i think i m heading off to play my game now.

until then ..

i m HAPPY at least for today (:

2009-04-06T13:01:00.000-07:00

Do you ever got that kind of feeling like something you lost are about to come back to you?

what was that feeling like? sweet or bitter.

i once thought that what would it feels for th others to reprociate your love.

even if days , months or years pass. if he is willing to come back.

that is sweet . and i would always hope for that.

but things changes, situation changes. i realise that me , myself changes too.

about all this views about love. and life.

i hv hurt people that come back. false hope and so.

thats why now its doing back @ me again? is it?

OH FUCK ALL THESE LOVE.

though i m single now. but so what, who needs love to survive.
undeniably, w love , one glows and be a better person.
with love. one would b more happy
But so what? i just cant find. and my mr right is not dng his part to find me too.
so .. i guess only thing is . i would enjoy my single life now. Doing all sorts of things singles can do , & yes. just enjoy life.
TONIGHT IS A HAPPY NIGHT (: oh god.
i think i m falling again. i hv not feel so good for a long time.
thanks "tattat"(:

okay is confusing. but its what i want to project. so hack care okay! (:
just read and keep BLOODY comments to yourself! (: thank you babes and hunks (:

2009-04-05T02:15:00.000-07:00

hello peeeepos(; i m back from my genting trip!

hehehehe, fun (:
however i havent got much of the photos . so i will post up the photos next time ya((:

~~Day1~~:

Was woken up @ 5 am to prepare . then set off to golden mile to wait for bus @ 6am w jo&mom (:

met xinru&co . at thr . then waited for bus & off we head to

GENTING; THE CITY OF ENTERTAIMENT (:

camwhore in th bus ! & sleeep all the way to genting , of cos not to say i played my ds and intro fun games to them.

reach genting @ 1pm , went to took room key however we still hv to wait till 2 pm to tk room key --"

then went up to room put our things & waited for everybody to prepare and touch up before we start our day of fun! (:

went to indoor theme park .

rollercoaster and all. whoo it was fun w them (: camwhored tooo.

then ah bee thy all the msia friends came to find them , so the boys went t entertain their friends while the girls went to play second round!

ps: jo keep shoouting when riding roller coaster ! xDDD

~~Day2~~:

Outdoor theme park day

DAMN happy for me . =D

sit alot of rides that i wanted to .

cylone , spaceshot and pirate ship .

okay fun except i hurt myself during the super tobogaan.

everybody was happy that day(: ESP me (:

cause i get to sit my spaceshot for 2 times! thanks to the guys who acc me. whoolalala. damn songgggg(:

@ the night went down to starbucks w jo to kao tim my np IS course selection,

Chatted awhile over the net w jialing & cindy . in the end 3 of us are seperate cause no place for the 3 of us in one class .

However

Special thanks to ling who keep me inform bout class space & all . sorry to waste your sms (:

~~DAY 3~~ :

went down to kl the whole day till 12 midnight

bought some faceshop cosmetics .

cause of rain , slpt afterwards . (:

sweet dreams i should say . mmm =DD

ps : i miss him so much that day

memories are vague but sweet.

~~Day4~~

home sweet home however that previous night was spend in a good room ,

taken by my mom fr us ! the boys however slpt @ first world which was initially whr we stayed.

but seeing it was the last night and also mummy had points , she took room for us girls @ resort hotel.

Beautiful room & spacious. definetely not losing out to genting htl . and anw the main point was that there was "magic box" there , which made us girls went gaga , and goo goo over it.

bck to day4 .

evrybody assembled @ the bus interchange thr and waited for our bus to arrive.

in bus . slpt awhile then off to stop point bought tibbits home for family & of cos friends(: spent quite alot.

then ip man was shown in the bus .

this time see w jo. didnt cry however laugh quite alot.

damn ,, like a siao lang --" all jo fault .

but shows was nice (:

then home by dad car.

_____________________________________________________

Pictures post after tues(:

why are things changing?

dont happy days stay.

please just tell me , what can i do to make you love me?

you are always not there. Always.

even you are there , i m not always the first you talk to ,

are you those kind of guys they always say?

ALWAYS. i wonder what kind of guy you are. forget it

i shd stop typing lest .

2009-03-27T09:18:00.001-07:00

(Now) (Febuary /January)

I WANNA CUT HAIR!
Wish me luck (:

Long time no post . & yes you guess it .
i m not going to post tday too(:
SO . BYEBYE(:

3D bloody Valentine = GORE LA!

2009-03-18T11:57:00.000-07:00

Just back from movie !
3d bloody valentine =)
caught the movie w jon .
shit man , the movie damn bloody! and is valentine day! ohmygod.
i was covering most of my head @the movie & swearing secretly.
Shit eh ? but well. its really bloody. give me the creeps even till now .
Oh gosh . However the storyline is good . & i understand it !
but !! why why why. why tt handsome male lead is the murderer.
ahh fuck --'
all of the actors are handsome anw - ( typical Boonjiale ) --'
i will give the movie 4 stars.
Watch it if you DARE!

Anw, b4 the movie went to sit&Lepak w jo on top of vivo.
nice one! & thn to daiso to get our nails things.
yes jo, this is for you.
i want to get nails done soon! &&& please bloody cfm w me genting date!
=D

Okay tts all folks ! shall post next time.
ps: just realise i do not hv pict for long =="

2009-03-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

Heys peeps.
WTF. i hv swollen eye ! Anw tday is my precious sis bday!

HAPPY BDAY XINRU(:
well. anw last night went to top1 to celeb .
everybody made it the last min(: sibey fun&happy!
picts will be post when i recieve it !
maybe tmr?
lols.
anw ytd top1 workers piss us off totally.
Just a bloody vodka & they sort of want us to pay 50 bucks!
--" in the end they tried to play th saint and minus our singing hours . F them totally! --"
hate it !

I really wanna just have some time of my own

2009-03-09T14:45:00.000-07:00

Insomnia.
oh god. i have insomnia can you believe it?
And yes do i really have something bothering me.
Leeches , moses lim disguising as that fat lady, and pouring leeches over me.
, can i hv someone to translate for me?
or do i miss him ?
nahs, impossible. thn why do i wan to talk t him so much?
ahhhh fuck.
back to my show now. Byes.
_Meichian no shitsuji ((:

so many things , so little time.

2009-03-07T06:42:00.000-08:00

OH GOODNEESSS.
Now i think 24 hours a day isnt enough. i hv still got lots to plan and go thru
But time is running out ,
My gosh ;(
i describe till i want to die like tt ! LOL. pls CHOY AH CHOY!
it is actually plans for my girls !
hahahaha, bonding time is always only for bdays and special occasions.
Maybe should hold more girls night out , or girls day out!
=DDD hahahaha,
damn random .

I miss you .
I mean net without you is so boring .
i love it when you make me laugh
i know no compliment would be made. but yes i miss you .
):
2 friends in FB says i fall in love easily.
hoho. i wonder who are they ? so easy guess through my heart eh =) shyshy*
lol.
SHIT . I THINK I M MAD NOW. GOTTA GO B4 I SPURT "MASTERPIECE" again --"
Byes everyone.

2009-03-05T07:38:00.000-08:00

Its painful to see changes in her and you are not being able to stop it ,
Its painful to see so much things change around you. & you bloody cant stop it from happening.
it hurts to see someone you love&hold so dear helping others instead of you in an argument .
it hurts to see people flushing your suggestion down without even considering .
Hurts when you gave it your all , & nobody cares
its a bloody long journey , are we going to stop right here , right now?
even you & me we do not know how much we change , and how much all these hurts unknowingly.
she admitted that sometimes her words hurts , she knows that she hv hurt them with her use of words. But who knows they did hurt her with their actions.

Its funny how everything change when you slowly grow to bcome an adult .
relationship , kinship , friendship & anything.
you slowly matured & you slowly tend to think alot more. not the naive kids anymore.
in days to come . unknowingly you starts to suspect people more and more.
about the good they gave , about the plans they made , about the people they know
even more about their relationship w you .
Sometimes people purely just wanted to be friends w you , and you thought of them liking you .
Sometimes when people wanna get rid of you&talk sweet things to get rid , & you bloody think they like you & want to be even more close to you .
who are you seriously . have you found the real you yet?
have you found your real friends yet?
Admitting that i m old. admitting that i really tends to think much of everything now.
prolly i m just not that naive girl way back.
You can just see from how i project myself.
You just don bloody mess with the wrong kind. you wil get more then what you really need and that is really bad.
Well anw, life is just that unfair.
when you are more then what you are. the world crumbles down.
friends come & go, do you really know where you stand in people heart?
do you know where all your efforts go @ the end of the day?
down the drain or up in their mind?
& nevertheless , they do wonder about you too. just negative or positive.

Long journey but the one who keeps the journey going are the people inside the ship .
whether did they make the effort to keep the ship from sailing or do they just abandon the ship when its going to sink.
Effort makes alot of difference
& Trust too.

________________________________________
i really hopes the one can understand what am i trying to say(:

2009-03-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

( Morninqqqqqqqqqqqq- Can you see the diff between pict 2&this? )

Hellooo humans out there! Daily Blog posts(:
Jiale is a happy yet angry girl now!!
Happy bcos ytd was a fun day out w my girls& i can get to eat my long long one time Sushi Tei!
Yummys* (:
Anw. went out to town shopping ytd!
Bought a new shoes. & i m deciding to buy *unfree bird. hahaha ( inside joke )
anw was mainly choosing presents for winx birthday.

In the end we bought her
One bikini ,
One hairclip
& one dress.

Really hope she likes it . Aftermath , sx and cindy came to loook for us . But as we were really busy choosing winx present , we got a bit carried off. & sort of ignored them.

Sorry ya guys):

After that rush to outram , planning to surprise winx w my eye infection , But . was abit of mess . In the end i think . we did not succeed. But well. Patiently waited for winx to end her attachment . And i was camwhoring all the way , while jo * Patiently waited for her!

Finally she came down. can see she abit shock to see us there. Then actually wanted to bring her to ru there . as ru bought a cake, and wanted to surprise her. But plan failed. Sort of conflict cause abit --" But fine they say wanna go home . so like okay. Nothing much to say.

Then cindy girl msg me asked want to go drink ? & tada that sets my night off.

Went home t retouch& took my mango vodka b4 heading to jurong east to meet up w girl . Plans to go ru house to talk, gossips and drink !! And yes .while waiting for ru to end work, complain much to girl ! she understands amazingly (:

Then waited for ru to end work thn head up to her house for our drinking session . one word - FUN (: Talked alot. gossips alot. (:

Headed to breakfast in the morning then cab home w girl ! Okay i m freaking broke now):

what a night(: Jiale is really happy w ytd though plans failed.

2009-02-26T07:42:00.000-08:00

Seriously , why would i still feel so abandoned in a room full of people i Know .

Probably, all we know is that their looks and names. But who really tried to understand each other.

i feeel so lost now.

Its like everyone i know is so . fake & so .

they run to you only when they got problems. They say Nice Words becos they need to .

But when you are down in the dumps who really cared?

In this world everything is unfair . everything sucks to be honest.

My english aint good i know. But typing makes me feel better. Atleast for now.

________________________________________________________

HAD MAHJONG SESSION THE WHOLE DAY AFTER EH PAPER!

one word for it. SHUANG!!(:

thanks to cindy , jialing , irvin and jake!(:

I finally had my full of Mahjong !!

But i still havent had enough though .

Anw. hope i could score well for papers. esp s m.

Prayyyyyyyyyyyy)":

Work tmr, wish me luck. hahahah xD

2009-02-23T09:00:00.000-08:00

Godness . Times really flies .
Its been really long since 4 of us hang out together.
and yes. goodness its 2009 febuary now.
Passing new year , Chinese new year and valentine day.
its now heading to the end of febuary. time flies.
In like weeks time , it will be march - time to spend on my sisters winx&Ahru bday treats&presents.
And in april . school reopens. & this is when we are alrd in year 2 of our poly years.
woooo(:
Time really really pass fast this year .
& yes. got me thinking quite abit .
i m getting old. & there are much things i havent accomplish yet.
much thing i havent tried yet. Youth are seeping through me as fast as i know.
in around 2 years time . 2 head will be appearing in everything i wrote. resume , application forms and everything .
oh god . sometimes growing up seems bad too ,

Anw . tday was sm paper.
Yah, i didnt do well i think.
well. what pass is past. so no point thinking about it. just hope i m not going to repeat this asshole module again ! or i m going to bawl out loud. i swear. ( But crying doesnt give me pity marks eh? )
Anw . tmr is a free day. & i guess i m going to stay home or either go out w mum .
(:
& Wednesday is my last paper whoo. Environmental health. Hope i can score
(:

Anw. saw this perfect snogging , & i guess its time to act adult , fuck & americans do speak slang like hell enguish !
guess i could not master it , even if you give me time !
--" shiat!
( RANDOM )

I keep on guessing what the good for is exchanging *something when we are not using it.
damn.
my thoughts are running wild again

CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !

2009-02-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

See the change in us ! ((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Claassic lor !=D

CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !

Arghhhh, really wish exams would end fast ! i wannnna slp&play & enjoy my night life--"
I m so sian-ed now.
mainly cause no one is online !
):
& also cause i Kpo. go open ppl blog , saw smth i don wish to see.
fxxk.

Anw. had a fun day ytd w My sis !
went snap all the way @Jo house.
And Jo did my new nails! (:
loveee this sis of mine . Claassic! lol
Anw. meet up @night with Bk buddy.
WOO. never change. we still talk like thrs no tmr.
hahhaha, and not to mention gossips!& gossips!
woooo~ i cant wait for th next meet up!
and going overseas w Jojoyee(:
loveeee sisters & Buddies.
ohyea. i m endin tday post w my new love ~
Aaron johnson! (:
Hot likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . Fire (:

OKIE. back to studies ~

2009-02-08T06:13:00.000-08:00

寒风也冷不过你对我的心肝
哪通糟蹋着我
爱着你心惊惊
想着你心痛痛
但是我没法度将感情收拾
等别人对待你亲像你对待我按
怎拢未心痛

____________________________________
Beautiful Hokkien sung by Huang Yi ling. ( if i m not wrong .
well. somethings which i don need say , probably you all can guess it.
;D i m bloody sad =(

Anw wrking life ended for now. and for next few weeks my sat and sun will be empty
! Jio me out okays sissys.
Anw. tday working was of great fun . went ard camwhoring other ppl while thy are wrking
. friendly staffs asa have. Well. some of them.
But most of them was like. okay only .
well. most enthu of all was of cause me&Chaoyang!
we went ard making funny faces. and well. i made her day! she laugh like nobody business.
cause she say i m Very -S-T-O-P-I-D. hahahah!
i had a veryvery pleasant day tday i should say(:
...
Until late night. arghhh fxxxx.
totally spoilt my day.
but i guess i should stop bothering myself w this kinda thing (:

Tmr 11 skl! bless i wont be late! ((:
Ohnnnnnn. i miss my sister .
And yes! ytd jo came and play mahjong ytd
We lose. but mum and dad just sua sua ke! . guess i still have to brush up mj skills.
Anw. tday jo made me laugh all the way from fajar to senja!
ASSHOLE! lols xDD my mouth even cramp!
Funny sia! everyday w this girl cfm laugh till mouth cramp! lols.
Anw. your sweet note is likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee damn sweet.
extra sugar hhuh? lol. love ya girl ((:

2009-02-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

( This pict i love th most , w my girly slackin at plaza sing )
( W em girl ;)_)

Hey o (:

i m here posting posting posting =)

long time didnt post up bout life alrd. so tday decide to post what is happening so far (:

5th feb .

Was late for maths class , No attendance tken. Dog tcher.
Presentation for Ecology
Lunch break w em girl .
Bugis w em girl. ( Bought red straw bag , 1 top & earings) =)
Em girl bought perfume for her boyf (: super sweet (:
Was intro by em , dior Liquid Foundation
& Lacoste perfume has his smell i swear (:
Girls talk during dinner at Yoshinoya !
Overall i had a fun day w em girl (:

Anw i m going to get Dior Extrim Flawless Liquid Foudation& Lacoste Misty

$.$ I really need money T.T

Wishes.

2009-02-03T09:56:00.000-08:00

hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you're faced with a choice,
and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything...
My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.

(:
* this song says everything from me - to you .

2009-02-02T07:50:00.000-08:00

Realising i have been the biggest fool out of all .

i really feel down ,

really

feel

crying

Fxxk up life.

2009-02-01T10:30:00.001-08:00

Me and brother , Happy note to start off this . * I finally got my bro to photo w me (:
however ,
i m not gnna post happy things! Cause i m too angry to be posting happy things!

I seriously m a fool.
And its always. Why?!
you are lying to me again & again.
arent you tired of making up new stories to cover for the old one ?
am i such a unreasonable person that you mus always lie to me&say sorry .
i donwan sorry. i don need it .
i just don like people to lie to me ,
maybe you have to put in more effort , i don trust you anymore to be honest

( Who`re you )

My piorities now ,

is never a guy again .

It will be . F&F.

no , don get it wrong.

it will be friends and family.

AHH. not to be missed. studies tooo

I WILL BE A BETTER GIRL BY THIS YEAR END !

huat ah(:

我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳, and STUPID MATHS.

2009-01-28T03:24:00.000-08:00

ARGHHH. GRRR! i cant concentrate on my Maths Online.

I JUST CANT !

anw, pon the whole session of school tday.

stayed home , sleep , eat , watch tv and slp again.

awww. boring life .

actually suppose to be mahjong session and thn . yes , 3gu have smth on so its cancelled.

I Guess a day without school is quite bored as well.

& i really really cant fucking conc on my maths online as well as maths homewrk that are suppose to be due long way ago before time.

and god , my EH is still not complete yet.

--" fucking rats and markets.

Arghh . goodness . new year isnt over and yet i m here scolding like thrs no tmr.

really , you wouldnt like to be me . even for a day --"

hell. loads . of . uncomplete . things.

i know its still new year , i know i shouldnt be thinking of all these things.

but , its beyond my control .

emotions and feelings do come and go like encyopedia states. or whatever .

i miss him suddenly.

miss my perfect & wonderful "dream-on guy"

yes. i know now i have this perfect one. but he is not the one i really love .

hes not him . not my "dream-on guy"

i miss those msges. those contacts. those yo , those .feeling i once had for him

i miss him and everything.

i know i shouldnt . i know its gone . i know theres nothing left now.

not even a mere friend.

the answer is all along place before my eye.

he treated me like another mere stranger.

tell me. have you treated me more thn just another stranger? friend? have you?

Sometimes. tv reminds me of you, sometimes mtv , sometimes even songs.

we havent had any real memory tgt.

i should have no problem forgetting you.

No , not that i still hope for anything.But . i really miss you.

cmon. scold me , say i m stupid. say i m a clown. say i m a fool.

sometimes i really hope i m another person , someone you would stop and have a look

someone you will really love and say "hey , you are adorable" or any nice words.

to me . you will never have nice words to say.

i have asked you why.

your answer was just , dunno , maybe your face too qian bian !

am i ?

我爱上的是他笑起来的迷幻

我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳

我爱上的是我逃不掉的逃亡

2009-01-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY humans& Animals ( Eg charger my dog k )

Yesyes! 1year 1 time taking angbao days have come again! are you excited?!!

Anw. for me yes! i m super lah!

Ytd . was chu yi .

Went yipo house to collect Angbao early in the morning !

Sit & chit chat awhile. have some porridge , tk angbao nd . remisce yi xia.

thn off . me and my fam went to have prata at batok! ALIF PRATA .

Really superb nice.

thn camwhore w dearest family over there. thn off went to Uncle house and visit.

Played mahjong there. Heng ka.. happy ah me !

this mooo yr is really nice. won 2.4o ((:

okay la. not alot right ( to you all la) for me is alot liao ( cos i always lose 10 dollar upp )

--"

thn back home play Mahjong again. 3 ka mahjong!

sibey fun w family play! bro also come chap jit ka!

hahahaha, very very funny. But ! i still lose 10 dollar!

seriously , cause mummy sit my lucky "dong" what!!

thn yea. as you can guess winner is mommy lor!! (:

thn. talk on phone awhile & slpt (:

Chu er .

HAVENT GO BAI NIAN YET!

WLAO!

AND

Jiale got sorethroat nd Pimples.

she feeeel so .. chui now --"

& yes. she misses him alot now.

he is the one that makes her feel best .

arghhhh.

--" chui-ed **

2009-01-23T07:25:00.000-08:00

I m yours Truely. (:

A lot of people say it’s best to keep yourself busy so you can keep your mind off your sorrows, but at the end of the day when you’re all alone, you still have to face the hurt no matter what you do and it’s about standing tall even when the world is crumbling down before your eyes.
Our desire and need to express our thoughts and feelings are one of the most important aspects

i Love my everydays.

Anw. long time no post. busy w proj & friends.

Got no time for computer. Cause i neeed beauty sleep mahhhhhhh! haha xD

I shall post things other time.

as . this post is to thank someone . (:

you know who you`re .

though you don bother to read my blog .

Been out w him these few nights.

Nothing can compare to those times.

Foods surprises . the way you smile , the way your driving sucks! xD

the way you commented on my . nearly nude make up .

the way , everything seems so perfect w you ard.

Thank for putting my life in order again.

(;

2009-01-14T19:25:00.000-08:00

Wths! i m so boredddddddddddd.
bloody dance class held so early in th morn !
& , yes. i m waiting for sis to have her break!
& DAMNIT. kangxi is stuck at the funniest part
. and gr8. i think mommy have xiao S Talent btw ( don laugh )

=(
i m boreddddddddddddddddddddddd.
gr8. who can entertain me . Fullstop. arghh
bye lah!

2009-01-13T18:08:00.000-08:00

well life hasnt been good , or at least i think it wasnt.

everything aint going smooth

regardless studies. friendship , problms and oths.

damn it . & its not even the yr of cow yet

& all these shit happen.

wtf. i got go bai tai sui one lorr!

mai aneh leh! --"

But still worst is yet to come i think.

Anw. SM is really the most suckiest.

bloody hell. suck all my brain juice away. but in the end ans still wrong.

nabey. wondering how people manage to understand and do. --"

weird . or maybe it was only me.

Enuf of sch. as if that is not enough .

my workplace that bitch is .making me piss w sacrcastic comments and fuging attitude.

cause she knows my mother say . i cant offend anyone.

arghhhhh.pissed pissed pissed. i hate you bitch chuwawa.

i bloddddddy hate you really.

and as if . this wasnt the end.

me& "anybody out there" is .. fading. ( anybody=everybody)

aiya. .damn it lahs.

its always the same. nothing changes. nobody appreciates.

fuck all these

i m seriously tired.

i wna slp all day.

2009-01-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

杨丞琳 - 太烦恼
一样的化妆
一样的头发大家通通太像
多无聊啊剪杂志不如自己想
学谁不如自己闯每个人总会有一件事
要比别人强没有那么漂亮
就更用心化妆当身材没有办法想
努力微笑放光芒
我烦恼
太被动并不好
烦恼太冲动也不好
烦恼自信在动摇
烦恼烦恼钻进了牛角
我烦恼太聪明并不好
烦恼太愚蠢更不好烦恼
谁都不明了
烦恼烦恼太烦恼的苦恼
别让昨天变围墙
要拿今天当翅膀可以失恋不能失去了
对幸福的渴望暗恋最好撑把伞
小雨大雪都会下爱就像高跟鞋
越美的越容易拐一下难免受伤
重要的是不要留下疤没有阴影才不害怕
为了梦想痛着成长烦恼
太被动并不好烦恼
太聪明并不好

=====================

Yeps on top is one super nice song (:
i think lah.
hear and hear become super nice.
Bu liang xiao hua . damn nice tooooo,
my god. rainie like so damn cute only (:
Anw.
School reopening tmr ! i m so gng t die !
MORE LAO FUO YE , MORE PROJECTS DUE DATES ,MORE DANCE CLASS, MORE HANGING OUT( weelll not a bad point ) However all this .. makes me wna just lie at my bed at not go to skl !
But well school also have good points too. like nice fish and chips , yummy (:
oh well. lets see hows my first day skl in 2009 goes.
hopefully well (:

do i even come across your mind for a second .

even a second , that would be enough .

but well. i know you are living so well without me.

well. i am too. dont worry.

i m taking everything well in stride.

i m just a step to .

how i wish i got the amnesia.

whatever/-

2009-01-02T01:32:00.000-08:00

New year . late post btw.

so belated Happy New Year Everyone.

Anw. New year this year was fun .
Like xmas. we had a unusual one . w the usual girls. which in simpler form i will call them
'my girls"
yeah, so bcos mum was back in sin. & i lose my freedom .
girls decided to find me at my house kopitiam,
waited for everyone t come.
Jo was the first . seee lil nyona. Jo was so fan by my questions !! whahahha xD
thn went down for our late dinner at 10 pm !
ZI CHAR! hahaha.
total : 36bucks! cheap not ?!! hahahahaXD
and yes. went to buy asahi . beer? lol thn up to my house drink !
drank a lil . cos its damn bitter! girl drink up mine . i beg her anw =D
thn . played a lil game w poker. & see tv.
talk & camwhore.
usual LAH!
lol. thn cindy&winx was first to go. as winx lompang cindy gooody car .
thn awhile l8r it was ahru !
& me and jo was left .
JO THE PIG SLPT IMM! --" so i was lik talking to wall. In the end. slpt too! bt nevertheless
I had Best New Year . Not to mention . a gr8 thanks to all my precious girls who pei-ed me on all the special occasions.
- BIG BIG THANKS & BIG BIG HUGS.
ps : you all are the ones who make it fun , make all works out gr8ly. loveya all much!

Anw .2008 .
great year i should say.
i had dreams that come true, i made new friends. i still had my girls w me,
sadness. well thrs is bound to be. but i overcome it all. & yes i m still strong . still standing.
& i got over it soon enough.
Sistership got abit drifted in the middle of the year. however . we pulled it back again.
still as strong as ever.

my best best sisters . Jo, winx & ru .
Jo : thanks for being my listener , always willing to acc me to whr i want to go , always willing to talk t me, always willing to lend me tissue. i know alot of things will change as time goes by .bt one thing for sure. our sistership wont (: i will be thr if you need me .

Winx: thanks for advice & always pon lessons pei me ah. you know how much i love you one lah. so hhahaha. thanks & love you babe. if you have any problems just ask me out talk at starbucks k ! hahha. or our lao di fang! wish 2009 will be a goodyear for you. & ps . i know you hate her. but stop wanting t make video leh! lol xD Hope your next guy will be the one for you. (;

Ru : you are one of those true friends. always giving true comments. i know this yr is abit tough for you! bt as o level is finishing . you are embarking on a new journey. Poly life! hope you can cope and . hope 2009 will be a good one for you. study hard girl. love you(: meetup for shoppings sooon kays(; loveeee ya sissy. appreciate you always plan surprises for me at my bday!(:

Cindy : Girl, thanks for ya company in lonely lonely new polytechnic school. you made my polylife colourful w gossips and heart to heart talk. thanks for ya endless advices.& suggestions. though sometimes seems abit slutty. hahahaha =x
lol. hoope 2009 will be a nice yr for you. and cont to make my polylife colourful leh! don call me sotong anymore!!! hahahaxD

Jialing: Funny girl i should say. life is never boring w her. Poly life seems so so so fun w her!
Lessons seems so lively ! hahaha . & please go out w us more lehhhhhhhhhhhhh. (;
love you girlys(;

Well. time for new yr resolution eh? lol

- Not to be lateQueen anymore .
- Change my Bloody attitude.
- Not to be tooo supertitious.
- 3.0 for GPA
- achieve my car license sooon (:
- Never ever . fall in love w the wrong kind again!
- Spend More time w Family
- heh( secret for last) (:

i hope so much for cny soooooooooon.
i cant bloody wait for new clothes&Angbao lah! =x
tmr is a saturday again. which means. wrking for me again .
well hopefully i wont be late!
(:
wordy wordy. picts. will be uploaded soon (:
love ya all. readers.

When is the day .

the day i decided to give up. is all a blur now.

days spend tgt and having fun seems so much like a dream now.

i only hope you are happy

yes. don wry anybody. don guess. i have no feelings for him . or whoever i mention.

2008-12-25T04:38:00.000-08:00

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE.

eve, 24.12.08
Eve was ton-ing at westcoast w cindy , winx. xinru&jo (:
meet up w sis & cindy first to buy groceries.
tent . & whatsoever for camp! hahaha.
raining again !! --"
reach imm. bought our groceries. thn head off to girl`s house to put them there.
thn waited for ru to come .
and we went so inspirational . making videos bla! lol. gr8 fun w girls.
and when its 11 plus ! Cindy boyf came to fetch us to westcoast !
Along the way , bought charcoal for our bbq . &
then . reached west coast at ard 12.
find spot Nd pitch our tent !
whahahahha. pitch pitch pitch ! winx was damn clever ! thanks to her , jo got to slp! xD
lol. & thn after that , we started to exchange our pressies !
Super lucky de ! ru and me keep choose our own presents
thn again! Ru choose till mine , and i choose till winx !
Ahhahah! i really like the tee mans !
Love it ! hahaa thanks girl (:
then . spend night eating , peng kan-ing. Hhahahah., mini bbq damn delicious & talks damn nice
nice night spend w my girls .except sleepy jo lol.
Till ard 5 . me & winx went to have a little personal talk at seaside.
i find out , w a calm mind. & good advice . i beginning to see the "Light"
i know what to do now (:
Really & i don think i will regret it . thanks sis ,.
thn went bac , talks a little w jo . and girl&jo pengkan marshmallow for us !
RU KOU JI HUA ! sibey nice (:
thn 7 plus , keep and went home ,
got a nice greeting from a exercise ahpek! MERRY XMAS & MORNING HE SAYS(:
thn 8 plus reach home . slp till now ! hahaha =x
sorry Li , i next time mi bu to you k !
merry meerry xmas to you !
love ya girl (:

LASTLY . merry xmas everyone ,

& to winx: thanks alot ytd . you made me realise alot. though you are not always there , but once you are there. everything seems more clear . i really love & cherish ya lots sis (:
tkcares. & study hard lah! loveeeeeeee ya (: wish ya find "him" soon (;

i embarked on a road of ...

crush , or not , i donknow.

bt one thing for sure.

i want to get you out of my mind.

thats 100% sure.

nothing wil .change my mind anymore .

2008-12-23T23:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes. i really do not know what i m dng .

chill lah . people says. but how many really knows how i m feeling.

cant move on , cant move on.

crush & disturbia is playing over and over again in my head.

cant seems to forget how lovely it seems to be,

everything .

but in the end, everything was nothing at all.

pretentence. how long can one pretend to be nice & all.

i m sick & tired.

sometimes i really just wanna be small nd nice nd everything.

================

24th dec.

Gng out t celebrate w girls.

Initial plans : Out to town wait for jo end work. wait for cindy boyf come drive us over t ecp

Ton there w tents and .. sleeping bag.

awwwwwwwwww. seems fun?

i m so bored now.

where are you ?

2008-12-23T04:49:00.000-08:00

Things have been going so wrong. yet nothing is wrong.
& nothing is something.
its like i m living my life , you are living yours.
Nothing wrong right?
bt to me , there is something wrong. very wrong indeed .
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i m on the verge of insanity now.
everytime i m on the verge of giving up, somethinghappen & I BELIEVE AGAIN!
shit , don bullshit me & give me fake hopes Please.
let me off.. i m really sick and tired of being all alone. waiting for the right one to come , but all along . nothing but disappointment & hurts.
Please. i m just a mere girl i don deserve this.
fuck all this fate and destiny .
fuckyou . fuck them all! i hate this . fucking world i swear.
xmas is coming , but i dont feel at all excited or anything.
well. maybe . exchanging presents&living one night in a tent w girls keep me up abit
But . nothing else.
i m vexed , i m nothing , i donknow what bullshit am i talking but i m tired of life.
i m tired of hearing those couple talks everywhr.
No , i m not despo for a boyf !
or maybe . i just Want to find my right one.
or maybe . love is in the air. but not mine.
love , what the fuck! i hate it .
i hate those butterflies in my stomach when i m trying to talk to you. no more. no more of that now ,
i m not sure whats next , bt definitely surely . i will figure it out somehow .
please. i wna live my life happily like before.
please. let me off. i donwanna wait for the wrong person forever.
let me forget him please.

=================

Anw, ytd was family day ,
Woke up 8 in th morning . to prepare and everything.
then waited for daddy mommy to wake up.
and off we go.
head off w dad and bro to buy books early in the morning first. thn back home to change.
went to chinatown and slack ard w dad and bro thr first as mommy went up t office t collect her air tix .
after that. abit of tiffs. so went home have a rest & about 5. set off to eat again.
Ate beef hor fun & shop ard supermarket !
hohoho simple bt super fun!
super fun gossiping about fat womans butt . & pushing trolleys anyhow,
superly fun talking to guys w mummy!
advices from old usually makes us see the pict over again. and decides whats best.
but . well. i havent decide. & i stil donwant to. though what mommy says makes sense.
and . bleak future i should say.
maybe. not meant to be?
anw . round 8 . jo comes to visit w her cam !
upload picts and joke ard.
hahhah, I LOVE JOJO MOLE(:
hahahah, so damn cute hor jo?! lol
and round 10 she went home. fun day(:

2008-12-21T09:24:00.000-08:00

SISTERS IS LOVE!

sweet things my sister does always make me wanna tears
like xr mak the video for us. all our memorable events &so.
Jo does all those things for us. ( I m lazy to mention ) But she always put me first !
Winx went to FARENHEIT CONCERT ! & yes though i didnt go !
she rmbed my love fr yan ya lun
& she video it down for me !
(: ohgooodness
just tell me . how many people can have such fortune to have pretty&great sisters like them!
no worries sister ! our .. sistership will last .. I hope is forever (:
mushy but is from the bottom of my heart !

2008-12-21T08:12:00.000-08:00

Before i begins !
Here is one handsomeeeeeeeeee show you all for drooling purpose !
EEEEEEEEEEEEE ~ lol
Anw. his name is oliversykes ! sibey handsome only
*SCREAMS. (:

& Tada my cute maid (:

Anw. went out tday , do stunt never go work ! hahaha =x
meeet up w jojo&her friend to do some last minute shoopping .
50 dollars gone !
--" but nevertheless.. all the things i bought i m satisfied.
hope sis & family tooo!

Tmr sibey excited !
Family day after so long !
(: whooolalaaaaaaaaa. longlong year 1 time !
yesyesyes. hopefully nothing go wrong.
like scarli shop hafway mommy shout at me. --" lol
or .. i suddenly got thing on?!
LOL. BU KE NENG MAN ! anyone , everyone , tmr i not freee k !
don ask me out ah!

Anw. i just had a chat w my dear sister winnie.
& yes. i felt like we are still as close as ever though we seldom meet nowadays
maybe. all of us have our own life to lead..
closeness is there. but i hope we meet up sooon.
catch up , la teh . all these
hope you can make time out for me okay!
miss ya sis (:
& I WANNA TELL JO SOMETHING !
sometimes i love you till i wanna kiss you . but sometimes i hate you till i wnna kill you!! murder you !
sometimes your words just hurt so much!
hhahaha, but neevertheless you are stil the best best best . among all (:
i love you babe (:
cheers t our near 5 yr friendship &sistership(:

Sometimes. you just gonna accept human change.
arghh i miss him so freaking much.
i realise . I cant forget you.
i believe. somedays. someone . all these will come.
i will never admit i lose until i try !

2008-12-17T08:33:00.000-08:00

There might be a thousand things making you unhappy.

But . everyday , there should be at least one that made you smile (:

Anw.

Just a moment ago. i thought i m having a very bad day.
till i read someone blog.
till then i realize. i m thinking too much.
like people dont notice me , blabla * like i m the unluckiest person on earth,
yes don laugh or ask. but 1 hour ago. all i can think of is that.
But after blog hopping & i came across this girl blog.
i believe. everyday there should be something that made me smile.
& i found something that is worth my smile today.
and that is shopping & laughing at jokes w girl & sis , jojo (:

& Yes. some one. i thought of it again.
Reading that blog makes me think of what to do next .
but . i m having second thoughts.
what if . everything wont be as smooth as i thought it should be.
what should i do ?
But because i believe in miracle , i believe .
(:
childish and stupid . bt true. i believe.

2008-12-15T05:36:00.000-08:00

its been long,
Long since i last went out w my family. all of them for a trip.
Longer since , i went out shopping w them .
suddenly. i felt that i m not a wonderful daughter to them ,
not a wonderful sister to my cutebrobrod. even though how much i claim to love him
I felt the huge dist between me & my family. even though how much i deny.
its there.
some change is irreversible. & i do not know how t make up to them.
i felt . so lousy .
why am i such a person.
& i even made mom cry.
i m terrible aint i?
shouldnt be living in this world.
i wish. i would be back to those days.
dad,mom, me & bro and wondergirl.

its beeen so long , so long since wonder left us.
you have been such a precious to our family.
bonding seeems much easier for us w you around
though you bites. though you scratch, though you are nt friendly at all.
bt . to us . you are always cute & cuddly.
always been thr for us till th last of your breath.
i`ve see you grow , like you seen mine.
being . always tgt .
Rmb . during primary school. after school i will be back telling you how much school is a bored & so on.
and you will be loooking me at those innocent eyes that seems to be telling me you know .
i told you . all about them. how they bully me . & yes. i know you are tearing w me,
wondergirl i miss you so damn frucking much!
i have so much more to tellyou.
when can i ever see you again.
R.I.P my beloved girl . i miss you forever.

i really wish to go back to those old sweet times.
no regrets ?
how easy to say , how hard to do.

2008-12-12T09:45:00.000-08:00

Down-ness
if there is something i could do to make all this pain & trouble go away.
but there was nothing to it.

I felt so small. so damn tiny weeeny small.
nobody ever notices.
the feeling comes so insecure.
its like. i m a nobody.
nobody ever bothers how sad , how angry or happy am i.
truly nobody.
& yes i hate the feelings of left out , of not feeling impt.
to you * and yes. to my friends to others.
shit. --"
damn it. emo & i m hating the whole world
i hate myself more luhs!
--"
gosh. i m off!
shd be enjoying, yet i m emo-ing .
WHAT THE FISH!* =="

2008-12-10T23:57:00.000-08:00

<> (:

Anw yes. i have been hanging out w the abv girl like almost everyday!!
yes. thats my girl. Cindy Lim lor!
hahaha. xD
well. my classmate &girlfriend you know!
of cos hangout w her lah!
she is the most steady friend i ever made.
thumbs up girl (:
& with her. laughter can fill up the whole day. of cos her day lah! cos i make her laugh mah!
correct not girl ?
lol.
Anw. more plans for us , girlfriends. to hang out after exams.

Gym w girl , probably jo too.
mahjonging w girl , jialing & irvin.
movie w girl & jo right after exam . ( the two busy girls havent cfm --")
chit chatting sessions w all my sisters. to catch up.
butterfactory to support girl.
xmas bash* ( did i describe correctly? )
xmas gift exchanging.
(: i would love girls night out though.

Anw. been hanging out since b4 common test starts.
studying always at starbucks & coffeebean
& i think the staffs must love us alot.
cause we damn support them. everytime buy huge choco or mocca frapucino.
heeees. anw. studied alot for commontestxzx this time.
Hopefully i can pass everything . except econs of cause =x
Anw, tmr gng t movie w girl & my bestbest sister. JOJOYEEEE
& before all the fun begin.
tmr is ecology paper
awwww. sadness. bt morn i m finding sis to make my nails over @ her house.
& yes. chit chatting session, you got alot t update me right. chou sis . =x
hahaha, and yes. poor sis is working like a Bull now. --
i m bored. and i m gng t slp now! byeeeee.

Beeen long since we last contact. agree?
did i ever pass by your mind? just by any coincidence ?
or for .. boring thoughts. did i ?
i yearn .. for .. some.thing.some.one.some.whr.

2008-12-08T01:48:00.000-08:00

Y E S , i am gng t flunk my ECONOMICS
& MRS WONG IS SO GNG TO CALL MY DAD
f***k.
nothing goes right anymore. --"
anw. meeting girl study maths l8r.
hopefully my maths would pass , like give me B for everything okay.
well everything except . econs would be nice enough(:
i m nt greedy. hahahha
ciaos.

Night life.
seriously. what am i to you ? nor , who m i to care.
well. nothing more then a mere passer-by

2008-12-03T08:11:00.000-08:00

Seriously , is there anything that wont change due to time?
Or will evrything eventually change.
I hate changes , well of cause good changes i don hate.
bt , why do everyone change ?
why dont thy be themselves , Regardless of characters or appearance.
yes, i know they wna chg appearance to appease ppl, to upgrade themselves.
bt . why do people char change too ?
from the way they treat people.. hais. its no longer the same .
sometimes close friends do leave you for like newer friends .
even how close both claim to be, but yes, like relationship, wil friends get tired of each oths too?
what is the definition of friendship ?
who can tell me? even yes a guy could change a friendship between two.
Too many questions change a close friendship toooo ?
so how do we define close sisters , buddies or friends?

Anw, pardon me fr the emotional post upstairs. too much happen.
& i found it better to get it out of me ?
hidden meaning yes? I hope Someone could somehow understand it .
anw . slacking w girl just now.
& Ahben help me w maths revision , Cfm A alrd mans.
tmr studying w classmates for SM&CEC
i hope i will be able to catch up.
3.0 Wait fr mama k (:

Yes. one more emotional paragraph --'
Seriously People tends to think more when thy gets older
.. i really wonder . Like what girl says.
" What would happen 2 years down the road? "
That really brought my lazy mind thinking.
will i be alrd having license , having beautiful car to drive to skl or
{ Bike? } well. will sisters be as close as ever ? will i still be thinking of the same him?
will fashion sense stil stay as like this --"
what would happen t all my friend?
yes. i really wonder.
well. i guess i can only wait for the answer .

2008-12-02T03:22:00.000-08:00

Girls NIGHT Out (:

as promised yeah, The photos of all my girlfriends.

and yes all are so gorgeous (:

* hahaah yes i heard some water droplets dripping though , don be envy i took picts w them uh! =x hahhaha,

well.

yes. so i will begin my non-crap post now.. ( ONLY NOW THEN BEGIN )

Anw, skl as usual ,

Mon i went to sentosa w girl & Jo though ,

yes , i promise photos will be upload l8r (:

And yes , Girl freaking woke me up at 6 in the freaking monday morning when thr is no class !

Motive : GO SENTOSA.

and yes , she is power man! woke me up liao still msg wake up the whole page --"

So woke up and prepare.

Damn cui --

my whole mind just wanna shut down and slp!

So anw took 963 and fuck , morning crowded w so many ppl sia!

wtf --"

and yes, heng one uncle let me sit . (:

bt well , girl and jo just nt as lucky, thy cant squeeze up the bus i m on, so yes. thy just wait for another .

& well. its amazing and quite ** funny to notice how ppl slp on bus.

some just in deep slp. hahahahha =x

no offence anw .

so yes. reach harbourfront FIRST ! and waited for them

bought things to sentosa & eat

& Yes. we suntan thr~ i almost turn to some roasted RIB or smth lik tt ,

s o , being hot & whatever alrd. Jo and me decide to dip in water .

(: COOLING I SAY & GIRL WAS ENJOYING HER SUNBATH all the while

anw. so till 12.3o , pack and went for bath,

thn back t skl. studytime (:

grab a bite w cliques b4 gng t *Empress class anw.

-DAY ENDED -

Tuesday, 2dec.

I m late for class. cab t skl!

and yes. girl disturb me again this morning !

PS; girl i see its becoming a habit alrd ah , stop it !! --"

lol. kidding.

anw. Classs. and yes.

Cliques tday just discussed about those news that i duno.

so yes was very very attentively eating my fish&chips all the way.

Anw. i was like checking my hotmail & i saw things that disgust me totally. !!

Like ppl in norway & those icy cold countries.

Maybe they really have nothing to do. thy actually invented Killing seal as a sport .

Like pls , why is killing become sports now?! wtf?!

--" DISGUSTED. what has the world come to ?!

ppl like to commit suicide in a "new brainless way"

terrorist is out again , thanks to *////-/

& the fucking weather is getting more and more hot day by day ,

and NO MORE COLD WEATHER FOR WINTER AT HONGKONG?!!

why?!

is the world ending soon?

how is it gng t end.

wtf, i still do not want to die though yes i believe its ending soon

2008-11-29T22:06:00.000-08:00

have been gng out w my girlfriends for the past week.

meet up and so,

forgot most of the date though, & yes.

fun , and fun and more fun w them

Date out w my pretties sister at first ,

Winnie & Xinru .

went to hoolland V to slack after my school ,

went to eat coffeeshop , fish and chip is the sexy yo mans(:

and yes talk alot to them bout him & him

hahaha diff him though.

ours * Him

well. thn went to cold rock camwhore and eat ice -cream .

yummy . love days lik thats.

then went back to panjang area and slack w ru as ,winx wanna go home slp.

pig ah !! --"

and yes. talk again.

sister talk, and i saw another side of my sis. the soft side (:

yes. i think after that night, my opion of this sis chg quite abit,(:

bt yes , in a good way .

went home after 2

feel cui yet happy(:

NEXT OUTING -

from what i rmb , yes it was w my dearest girl & Sister JOJOYEE(:

went to sunset way for jojo`s dad cake first.

Happpy belated bday uncle (:

thn went to town & yes i got myself a nice spag . &

we went snap al the way at town toooo.

haha,yes thy say w me , thrs never a day without photo,.

hahahaha, and i really did a unglam thing at the middle of orchard!

shit --"i hope no one see it though =x

and thn home sweet home by bus 190.

Next outing !

this time everybody is present (:

xinru , winx , jojo, cindy - okay i missed out ling =x

anw. went to town w ru & jo to meet up w cindy

& slack at starbucks , talking & stuffs

suddenly i felt like we girls have endless stuff to talk.

hahaha, anw, camwhored after we reach jojo block`s downstair,

fun and laughter filled the whole atmosphere.

jo`s dad claim to hear our laughter even at his room

that is like so exergratting, COS WE ARE 1 BLOCK AWAY FROM JO HOUSE . --

my god --'

i m sorry to jo neighbour anw if you all will see this post =x

lol. btw i m off to learn my maths alrdy.

cya ppls, ciao.

photos will be up as sooon as i recieve frm my girls (:

The hurt is so deep , i don think anything helps.

i wanna just leave .

2008-11-19T21:58:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, new post agn,
why ah ? bcos hor, i m here to announce to the whole bloodyboogy world that
: I HAVE A HUGE PIMPLE ON MY FACE NOW !!
i donknow lah.
pimple attack you know. jst so suddenly --'
suay only can. Suay only !

Anw, l8r gng out w my dearest girls. probably just out to slack for awhile (:
yes, i miss you lah girls .
talk talk talk. (:
anw, this is random k ! ( just feel like including in nia =x }

& i got nothing to post alrd lah,
shag-ed ..
ps : jo said shag aint a good word to use. Bt nehmind lah. haaaah xD SUPER RANDOM NOW.
OKAY OFF I GO TO LESSON. BYEBYE(:

To someone : i will never give up (:

2008-11-12T08:48:00.000-08:00

Yes, postings.

what the fuck, i donknow what the fuck come over me .
i miss you , yes i do.
bt .. yoo know i dont dare to ask or hope for anything from you,
yes i feel inferior.
i know that deeep down, we wouldnt have any progress.
evrything is stopping now. Bt . why why why ? why cant i just fucking give up!
Fuck Man, i m emo nw.
yes, i m afraid of rejection, i wanna give up so i wont get hurt.
so i wont cry anymore.
i m really tired of crying.
loving you , was just a series of more &more hurt coming up,
hot&cold. i m really sick and tired of that alrd.
maybe i m really that far from you, til you dont even wanna make an effort to try.
yes. maybe tell me str8. i would know btr . & give up more easily .
treat me nice and i wont know anything!i donwan ==

aghhhh, somehow , one day everything will end, only earlier or later
i don deserve such a great boy like you, yes i know.
amazing yes?

2008-11-08T06:31:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i really do not know whati m trying to do.

Yo people , so i have decide to blog again luhs(: ytd Night , just a normal friday night.

071108,

After skl , meet up w ling & ru at dover w cindy.

hahaha, cos me & cindy just need to attend the "laowoman" lesson only --"

hahha, thn head off to clarke quay to meet up w winx sister.

hahaha, { kelian de winx just wait lk 2 hours @ jo restaurant for us nia. --"}

ps hor sis =x ahahah anw, after meeting up , all of us head to pit stop !

Service thr is just goood only (: comfortable place to slack tooo .

Highly recommended k **

camwhored w my sis alot only lah !(:

will post the picts after sis send me (:

thn played game ,

team w sis while cindy teamed w ling,

Taboooo (:

hahaha, no one lose or win.

then have dinner and cont to play our game again!

1 ZHANG , 2 ZHANG ! hahaha excited matching dino games (:

did forefit as i keep retard thr --"

After that , ling went home , while me , winx , cindy & ru went to jo house ,

however. winx tk cab home froom thr as her momma niam her. LOLS.

thn meet up w jo,

went up to her house slack till 3 thn went home (;

cabby uncle just cute only !!

indian but know how t speak chinese ! AMUSING.

haahah (:

uncle says i always mix w malay ? why you know?

bcos i keep sia-ing =x lol (:

JUST SIA ONLY (:

Well, overall , i had a damn fun night out w my dearest girlfriends.

I WANT NIGHT LIKE THIS AGAIN K { OF COS W ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS AGAIN }

girlfriends ; jiale , Jocelynyee, WinnieTeo, Leexinru , CindyLim, Liu jialing

they are all i treasure (:

2008-11-05T08:21:00.000-08:00

YO ALIVE HUMANS(:

well . i m here to post abt my fun kbox w cindy,Irvin(3gu)&weifeng(:
anw , it was like damn fun!
Anddddddddddddd know wht?!
My 3gu voice like JUST veryvery nice only(:
like the aska . omg, i think one day i can just become his fan lorrrrr.
awwwwwwwwwwww.
and cindy singing just very the feeling only lah. I cried lik --"
and . yes tts when the unfortunate thing happen-d
my contacts got like super dry, so i put like TAP WATER inside my freaking eye lah.
am i mad you tell me?
thn i go back .like shiok AND aft like 2 SONGS . it started to get freaking red & pop out lah!
mygod --"
bt thanks to wf(: REALLY THANKS LEH. he help me buy the solution .
hahahhaha. and tt save me from gng blind (: LOL
well. thn aft tt 3gu borrow me spects and i went toooot * all the way!
hahahaa, thanks all friends for your help and concern .
i regret crying seriously ,

Think over , yes i m thinking !
the right and wrong,
the one i love , & the one who loves me ,
i knw everything k . why hide? lik for fuck. i cn type out evrything now.

bt seriously to the one who love me ;
: i m nt worthy of you,
i m nt what you think i m ,
if tday you can be angry over such a small things i do , tmr you might find out more extreme secrets about me?
cn you tk it ? i love challenges , cn you give me?
i don like simple love , i like luxurious life , cn you give me?
pls. i m nt so simple like you think , just a girl that is satisfy w her life , good temper and so on.
i m not. that is all just mask.
maybe if one day you uncover my secrets deep down , you will know.
bt i hope you dont ever tk out my mask. i like it thr.
bt i still hope we are good friends.(:
we are , arent we?
forever is only for friend . i love you dearest friend.

To the one i love .
: 不确定我的执着能让你感动 .
i did alot of things alrd.
i alr make the first move alot of times alrd.
i donknw what more i can do ?
can you tell me?
wake me up if that is a dream , JUST FUCKING TELL ME ,
BOONJIALE YOU NO CHANCE COS YOU ARE JUST TOO INSIGNIFIGCANT.
I DONLIKE YOU!!
just like that, i will know what to do.
seriously.
i like you more after . all
and , yes of cos i wouldnt miss any chance t be w you,
bt of cos if you don like me. i would go away ..

(: yes i know wht i m saying, people dont bother to comment okay.
- unless yes , you are one of the above i have mentioned?

Anw , bjl is off. and i swear somedays i might just get some heart attack =x

and yes ,

i just hate myself and the whole bloody fucking world now.

god is unfair , i know );

2008-10-28T23:49:00.000-07:00

Economics like sucking my brain cells away Now !
Shit . save me anyone ?

WELL. decided to post since i m like so damn shag ,
I think my blog is like soon sooon gng to close down man.
Dead shit .
Anw , 29Oct2008 .

I got a damn huge surprise ytd(28oct) . well nt really good if i shd say .
This time i lost it . good&forever .
well. bt i guess it will all get better in time ,
(:
& dk . you got smthg right again k. so you arent useless , atleast you cn read my dumb mind --"

Tday which is like 29oct.
I am late for meeting irvin again! =x
Oops . i m always late lah.
Shd learn how to be punctual & i think i shd put this on my wishlist l8r so i could achieve it ! *smirks ;D
anw. lik i say i was late & of cos we were late for class.
But being a good soul , of cos irvin forgive me .
& Maths Quiz tday.
SHIT . I M SO GONNA FLUNK LAH.
parabola and so on?! WTH MR FOOO. I REALLY DON LIKE YOU. =="
i want t pass maths lah,
failing maths made me feel so useless.
I want to get 3.9 GPA .
uhoh =x too high hor.
hahhaha =D well. i very shag lah tday.
forgive me if all these is crap cos i m lik damn cui tday =="
k lah. i shall ciao now . (:
tkc readers. bbb(:

2008-10-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

Yayneesss to being A-L-I-V-E & H-E-A-L-T-H-Y (:

i saw a damn touching show on chnl 8 Just now !

finally singapore shows are making big improvement & finally it is worth seeing .

Anw , its abt reality show that feature those less fortunate family in singapore.

& for tday eposoide they are featuring on a family of 4 siblings , & sadly three of them are retards . The only normal one are protective over them & don let them to be independent hence all the burden of tking care and earning money was his responsiblity .

And seriously i think this kind of brother damn goood (: bt thy do nt know hygiene ,

ND seriously , i do not know singapore still got Families in this kinda poor state.

fuck
! i should seriously read And see more of the News! ):

i wannnaaa be volunteeer lah! Bt toooooooooo bad i m afraid of cockroach & small little pest

& after watching this show i find that my problem is too small to be a problem !

BEST IS ME & MY WHOLE FAMILY ARE STILL HEALTHILY LIVING (:

Bt well, sometimes i do get emo & suddenly think of all the negative happening

Like tday, well definetely not a good day i shd say

i spend lik Half a day thinking of him & wht the fuck is happening to us?

everything is like turning frm bad to worst .

& i just think of him like a fool .

i tried to walk away , bt i could not help turning back to see if there is any glimpse of hope .

do you understand how much i fall now?

i feeel so damn fuck up now ,

imagine i ... am lik helplessly watching you and me distant away.

Fuggg . cn you pls at least tell me smth?

Like byebye? or smth at least to let me know you are here before?

& seriously friends and sister are nt helping at all !

Thy are just encouraging me to give up give up give up !

fuggggggggg. I Donwan to give up wout tryin lah! bt i lost my courage somehow .

& even i donwan to give up , i must,

bcos i feel so damn inferior .

i just fall a little tooo deep

Bt i m sure it will all get btr in Time .

2008-10-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

Amazing or not ?
there are two different sides even if only is a similar face in that one person .
can you all seee the different face in me ?
hahahha.
made this discovery thanks to my sister ruru (:
met up w her this afternoon as Cindy wanna pass her paper&help notes . ( Hope it will help her out ) Good luck for Os my sisters ; Ruru & jojo(:
Anyway. met up w sis Jo to support her Os.
And i m the early bird tday !
Waited for her & have a lil lame chat to soothe her nervous-ness , b4 she went for th major exam .
hope it helps (:
& Hope all People that are tking Os this yr will score well (: jy ..

& i really donknw why i think tooo much.
everything , yes , Noted that is everything beeen a fuck for me .
i hate . i hate this world , hate that everyone is so materialistic , hate that i m brainless
hate that whatever i do dont seems right,
hate that whoever i love wont love me back ,
Hate that i have to listen comments everywhere , Hate that people everywhere getting like shitty attitude,
HATE THAT I CANT BE ME ! i must chg & chg & fucking chg more to adapt to th now envt .
hate that my mom cant born me with sharp nose , big eyes & strong teeth.
arghhhh, i m unsatisfy with alot of things.
i donknow how to calm down.
the feeeling sucks. & i think maybe a slp will be btr for me now?
. ciaos thn . will be back.

why . why you?
inferior was everything that spelled for me.
i hated that feeling
i hated that you are like the butterfly , sky , beautiful things & i m nothing
i hate to feel inferior to you.
fuck
!

2008-10-15T07:13:00.000-07:00

I AM BACK !
Not to post..
But to ... Wish my sisters RuRu & Jojo all the best for their O levels !
of cos to my other friends that are tking Os and Ns this yr
!
i seriously feeelt nthg to post
! except ...

YES ! i abs love my new Hairstyleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
wlao eh ! ((:
nd my modules are like interesting this term ! Hope i cn get GPA 3.0 !!
hahahaha.

& last but nt least !
Jojo !! you the best lah .. best best best !
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU (:

2008-09-25T08:22:00.000-07:00

HEYO , people ,
just a short post , will pst up my china trip sooooon,
might be after this weeeek .
neway , i enjoy my hols. (:
Thanks to my momma ! (: however. i do have some bad news.
):
saddening.

Also , its amazing.
so amazing how karma goes.
i swear never t laugh& do stupid things again .
Children out thr. listen t momma and never laugh or say th less fortunate.
karma will somehow find you , ):
and yes i will be goood girl frm now on ,
(: w sisters persuading nd so on. i guess i can be sucessful .

only you can make those words come alive.
bt sorry was all you say .

2008-09-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

Hello everybody !
make changes in my blog, cancelled some links & (:
yes i am happy .

Finally , i wanna make something clear to someone out there.
Just because you are w him , doesnt mean i would go check your blog now&then ,
and seriously , pls don think such a big deal out of yourself ,
you are seriously nothing t me, you don affect me Moreover Change my Life.
so don think too high k !
in my eyes you are just a Liar
.
( you know well what you preach and what you didnt done (: }

Okay , anw On a happier note ,
i m employed again , this time helping out my mom in ASA. (:
easy money i should say, cept for some irritating customer that think so big of themself ):
anw , ytd
13 Nov.
i celebrated Mooncake festival w my - lovely lovely sisters
and yes , we played candles, and ti Lantern.
camwhoring ,
fun like hell lah!
lots of laughters. & it always happen when i m w my fabourite girls !
shall update when i got th photo from xinru !
ai ni readers. ByeBye. (:

someone : Do you believe in fate?

2008-09-06T07:04:00.001-07:00

Dedication - Sisters.
Enjoy a short video made by my Xinru,my preetyy sis before i go on .

Sisters of mine Consisting of Leexinru, Jocelynyee & Teowynnee

Yes, some have been w me since sec 1 like jojoyee & wynne , & Ru she came in till sec3 .

yes , and thy walked w me through Now ,

no one left,

though all of us have things of our own t do . our own group of cliques and so ;

bt we still find time for outings , for our every birthday tgt .

plans for special occasions tgt!

yes , though sometimes we have our rough patch & sometimes we might accidentally ignore each others.

bt deeep , yes i know this sistership will be forever standing strong no maatter how long or far we will go ! yes i believe so.

i stil remember vividly how all of us become friends and sisters

yes , initially, i hated them when we first saw each other.

due to jealousy , terrified and some other feeelings .

and this is how fate plays a part.

it accidentally made us into best of all friends!

and yes , rmb last time in sec sch time , whn i have staybacks. sometimes you all would wait for me& go home tgt

recess we will tk turns buy food on days. and normally xinru would do it.bcos she is superb in cutting queues . and usual i would be one that buy drinks .

and yes , till Os is over. we have job of our own , bt during all th freetime , i rmb i would see th usual nice, friendly smiling face of yoo all .

& whenever i have troubles or problem , you all would help t solve for me though you all find it a chore. bt you all would still help me &not t see me fall.

Whenever i felt bad , you all would all be there for me , drying my tears & comforting me saying everything will be fine esp jojoyeeee that shares most of my tears w me.

you all would be there teaching me how t be a good girl and such . as usual " zhong yan ni er " bt i really chg alot after knowing all of you (:

i m thankful for all of you & every memories we share. bt thr will be more t come ,

i swear (:

A song best tht describe sisters (:

CelineDion-Because you Love me

For all those timesyou stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith,

you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love

I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place

because of you

You were my strength

when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything

I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved me

2008-09-03T07:50:00.000-07:00

Heys peepos .
how many days never post liao ah?! hahaha not long ago leh!
anw. beeen busy wrking lik a beee this few days!
& yes i clinch a deal tday!
yes i m duper super urber happy! Thank you leh auntie !
hahaha (:
and yes , my job is t promote chinese tea ! bt some of them are nice even i don drink tea i also think nice ! wooohooo!
anybody , got drink come junction8 find me buy k (:
hohoho. ai ni mens!

Anw. tday went ru sis hus make mooncake again!
and i did some for shunxing (:
thn keept some for family toooo!
my hus full of mooon cakes now , Lol
anw ! fun luhs! i like making mooncake w them (:
lol.
bt yes i m still gonna buy th durian moooooncake!
(:

There are certain things i wish t post out i knw i shouldnt ,

i know yes , certain things forcing aint gonna make it right.

i know i m irritating , bt do you know tht love is very unexpected ,

crept up unknowingly. and yes i dont even know about it .

i never know that i would ever like you, and did so many things for you lik a stupid bloody foool

you are forever th sky , & yes no matter how hard or how much i chg ,

physically or mentally .

i would never be high enough for you .

you`re just like a bird soaring high , and i m just like any normal shit on th ground.

sorrry i didnt know ,

7 things i hate and love about you (:

:readers don guess. you all will never be right (:

2008-09-01T10:39:00.000-07:00

My special dedication t someone special t me (:

Wenjiale & Jojo yeeeeeeeeeeee .
4 years down the road , we shared a similar bond called , th best sistership.
you are always there for me when i am down, Always ther t share my sorrowful thoughts
always there w tissues t wipe away my tears
always there t hear my revengeful thoughts , & share opoions w me ,
always there t make me laugh ! no matter what.

when i m in love , you are there for me toooo.
helping me through all those embarrasing moments , helping me cope w my negative thinking
when i m out of love , you are there too.
giving me tissue without fails. making me laugh, scolding those bastard for me ,
i rmb your first vuglarity , was for me
i m deeeply touched. (:
truly ,
when i got my difficult times. you helped me got rid of those "ants"
i know its hard for you babe!
not t forget , you are always giving in t this sistership!
it makes me wondering sometimes.
are you my real sister in our past life?

4 yrs. we chg ! from ..adolescene teeenagers t matured ladies.
bt 4 yrs. nothing chg in our sistership! cheeeeeeeeeeeers!
i wish you all the best for your future endeveours.
and rmb ! you leave your footprints as deeeep as , he left his. even deeeper i guess
. sistership shall go on till we die ! shall we ?
(: love ya sis !
rmb , i m always here if you need someone? or tissue?hahaha
ciaos ,

Anw , thanks t my other sis toooooooooooo.
Winnie and xinru ! i love you both , not lesser tooooo (:
kisss kiss *

pamperedLOVE

Curses and blessing.

Dear Dog.

搜狗音乐盒 - If I Were A Boy

Harpers island , sports & something else.

Harpers island. & sports.

Lot1 . Marsball. And xinru

My worries.

flowersBite. S.I.M and BLOODY IS .

boys and girls.

special.

SENTOSA , JO BIG DAY(:

Sisters. Korea , and sadness.

Common test week.

black and white.

Aaron Blog. Quiz.

Forever my Ass.

Happy Day 。

Korean , Kim hyun Joong .

Dental & Day out w winnie teo (=

Fuck it

Happy Mother day . i love you

Life sucks

Introverted.

Day out with jo&yk! , picture upload next post .

day out with emily girl .

i m HAPPY at least for today (:

3D bloody Valentine = GORE LA!

I really wanna just have some time of my own

so many things , so little time.

CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE !

Wishes.

我爱上的 是他瞳孔里的太阳, and STUPID MATHS.

我爱上的是他瞳孔里的太阳, and STUPID MATHS.