Its painful to see changes in her and you are not being able to stop it ,
Its painful to see so much things change around you. & you bloody cant stop it from happening.
it hurts to see someone you love&hold so dear helping others instead of you in an argument .
it hurts to see people flushing your suggestion down without even considering .
Hurts when you gave it your all , & nobody cares
its a bloody long journey , are we going to stop right here , right now?
even you & me we do not know how much we change , and how much all these hurts unknowingly.
she admitted that sometimes her words hurts , she knows that she hv hurt them with her use of words. But who knows they did hurt her with their actions.

Its funny how everything change when you slowly grow to bcome an adult .
relationship , kinship , friendship & anything.
you slowly matured & you slowly tend to think alot more. not the naive kids anymore.
in days to come . unknowingly you starts to suspect people more and more.
about the good they gave , about the plans they made , about the people they know
even more about their relationship w you .
Sometimes people purely just wanted to be friends w you , and you thought of them liking you .
Sometimes when people wanna get rid of you&talk sweet things to get rid , & you bloody think they like you & want to be even more close to you .
who are you seriously . have you found the real you yet?
have you found your real friends yet?
Admitting that i m old. admitting that i really tends to think much of everything now.
prolly i m just not that naive girl way back.
You can just see from how i project myself.
You just don bloody mess with the wrong kind. you wil get more then what you really need and that is really bad.
Well anw, life is just that unfair.
when you are more then what you are. the world crumbles down.
friends come & go, do you really know where you stand in people heart?
do you know where all your efforts go @ the end of the day?
down the drain or up in their mind?
& nevertheless , they do wonder about you too. just negative or positive.

Long journey but the one who keeps the journey going are the people inside the ship .
whether did they make the effort to keep the ship from sailing or do they just abandon the ship when its going to sink.
Effort makes alot of difference
& Trust too.


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i really hopes the one can understand what am i trying to say(: