MERRY XMAS EVERYONE.

eve, 24.12.08
Eve was ton-ing at westcoast w cindy , winx. xinru&jo (:
meet up w sis & cindy first to buy groceries.
tent . & whatsoever for camp! hahaha.
raining again !! --"
reach imm. bought our groceries. thn head off to girl`s house to put them there.
thn waited for ru to come .
and we went so inspirational . making videos bla! lol. gr8 fun w girls.
and when its 11 plus ! Cindy boyf came to fetch us to westcoast !
Along the way , bought charcoal for our bbq . &
then . reached west coast at ard 12.
find spot Nd pitch our tent !
whahahahha. pitch pitch pitch ! winx was damn clever ! thanks to her , jo got to slp! xD
lol. & thn after that , we started to exchange our pressies !
Super lucky de ! ru and me keep choose our own presents
thn again! Ru choose till mine , and i choose till winx !
Ahhahah! i really like the tee mans !
Love it ! hahaa thanks girl (:
then . spend night eating , peng kan-ing. Hhahahah., mini bbq damn delicious & talks damn nice
nice night spend w my girls .except sleepy jo lol.
Till ard 5 . me & winx went to have a little personal talk at seaside.
i find out , w a calm mind. & good advice . i beginning to see the "Light"
i know what to do now (:
Really & i don think i will regret it . thanks sis ,.
thn went bac , talks a little w jo . and girl&jo pengkan marshmallow for us !
RU KOU JI HUA ! sibey nice (:
thn 7 plus , keep and went home ,
got a nice greeting from a exercise ahpek! MERRY XMAS & MORNING HE SAYS(:
thn 8 plus reach home . slp till now ! hahaha =x
sorry Li , i next time mi bu to you k !
merry meerry xmas to you !
love ya girl (:

LASTLY . merry xmas everyone ,

& to winx: thanks alot ytd . you made me realise alot. though you are not always there , but once you are there. everything seems more clear . i really love & cherish ya lots sis (:
tkcares. & study hard lah! loveeeeeeee ya (: wish ya find "him" soon (;

i embarked on a road of ...

crush , or not , i donknow.

bt one thing for sure.

i want to get you out of my mind.

thats 100% sure.

nothing wil .change my mind anymore .

Sometimes. i really do not know what i m dng .

chill lah . people says. but how many really knows how i m feeling.

cant move on , cant move on.

crush & disturbia is playing over and over again in my head.

cant seems to forget how lovely it seems to be,

everything .

but in the end, everything was nothing at all.

pretentence. how long can one pretend to be nice & all.

i m sick & tired.

sometimes i really just wanna be small nd nice nd everything.

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24th dec.

Gng out t celebrate w girls.

Initial plans : Out to town wait for jo end work. wait for cindy boyf come drive us over t ecp

Ton there w tents and .. sleeping bag.

awwwwwwwwww. seems fun?

i m so bored now.

where are you ?

Things have been going so wrong. yet nothing is wrong.
& nothing is something.
its like i m living my life , you are living yours.
Nothing wrong right?
bt to me , there is something wrong. very wrong indeed .
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i m on the verge of insanity now.
everytime i m on the verge of giving up, somethinghappen & I BELIEVE AGAIN!
shit , don bullshit me & give me fake hopes Please.
let me off.. i m really sick and tired of being all alone. waiting for the right one to come , but all along . nothing but disappointment & hurts.
Please. i m just a mere girl i don deserve this.
fuck all this fate and destiny .
fuckyou . fuck them all! i hate this . fucking world i swear.
xmas is coming , but i dont feel at all excited or anything.
well. maybe . exchanging presents&living one night in a tent w girls keep me up abit
But . nothing else.
i m vexed , i m nothing , i donknow what bullshit am i talking but i m tired of life.
i m tired of hearing those couple talks everywhr.
No , i m not despo for a boyf !
or maybe . i just Want to find my right one.
or maybe . love is in the air. but not mine.
love , what the fuck! i hate it .
i hate those butterflies in my stomach when i m trying to talk to you. no more. no more of that now ,
i m not sure whats next , bt definitely surely . i will figure it out somehow .
please. i wna live my life happily like before.
please. let me off. i donwanna wait for the wrong person forever.
let me forget him please.

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Anw, ytd was family day ,
Woke up 8 in th morning . to prepare and everything.
then waited for daddy mommy to wake up.
and off we go.
head off w dad and bro to buy books early in the morning first. thn back home to change.
went to chinatown and slack ard w dad and bro thr first as mommy went up t office t collect her air tix .
after that. abit of tiffs. so went home have a rest & about 5. set off to eat again.
Ate beef hor fun & shop ard supermarket !
hohoho simple bt super fun!
super fun gossiping about fat womans butt . & pushing trolleys anyhow,
superly fun talking to guys w mummy!
advices from old usually makes us see the pict over again. and decides whats best.
but . well. i havent decide. & i stil donwant to. though what mommy says makes sense.
and . bleak future i should say.
maybe. not meant to be?
anw . round 8 . jo comes to visit w her cam !
upload picts and joke ard.
hahhah, I LOVE JOJO MOLE(:
hahahah, so damn cute hor jo?! lol
and round 10 she went home. fun day(:

SISTERS IS LOVE!

sweet things my sister does always make me wanna tears
like xr mak the video for us. all our memorable events &so.
Jo does all those things for us. ( I m lazy to mention ) But she always put me first !
Winx went to FARENHEIT CONCERT ! & yes though i didnt go !
she rmbed my love fr yan ya lun
& she video it down for me !
(: ohgooodness
just tell me . how many people can have such fortune to have pretty&great sisters like them!
no worries sister ! our .. sistership will last .. I hope is forever (:
mushy but is from the bottom of my heart !

Before i begins !
Here is one handsomeeeeeeeeee show you all for drooling purpose !
EEEEEEEEEEEEE ~ lol
Anw. his name is oliversykes ! sibey handsome only
*SCREAMS. (:
















& Tada my cute maid (:


Anw. went out tday , do stunt never go work ! hahaha =x
meeet up w jojo&her friend to do some last minute shoopping .
50 dollars gone !
--" but nevertheless.. all the things i bought i m satisfied.
hope sis & family tooo!

Tmr sibey excited !
Family day after so long !
(: whooolalaaaaaaaaa. longlong year 1 time !
yesyesyes. hopefully nothing go wrong.
like scarli shop hafway mommy shout at me. --" lol
or .. i suddenly got thing on?!
LOL. BU KE NENG MAN ! anyone , everyone , tmr i not freee k !
don ask me out ah!

Anw. i just had a chat w my dear sister winnie.
& yes. i felt like we are still as close as ever though we seldom meet nowadays
maybe. all of us have our own life to lead..
closeness is there. but i hope we meet up sooon.
catch up , la teh . all these
hope you can make time out for me okay!
miss ya sis (:
& I WANNA TELL JO SOMETHING !
sometimes i love you till i wanna kiss you . but sometimes i hate you till i wnna kill you!! murder you !
sometimes your words just hurt so much!
hhahaha, but neevertheless you are stil the best best best . among all (:
i love you babe (:
cheers t our near 5 yr friendship &sistership(:


Sometimes. you just gonna accept human change.
arghh i miss him so freaking much.
i realise . I cant forget you.
i believe. somedays. someone . all these will come.
i will never admit i lose until i try !

There might be a thousand things making you unhappy.

But . everyday , there should be at least one that made you smile (:

Anw.

Just a moment ago. i thought i m having a very bad day.
till i read someone blog.
till then i realize. i m thinking too much.
like people dont notice me , blabla * like i m the unluckiest person on earth,
yes don laugh or ask. but 1 hour ago. all i can think of is that.
But after blog hopping & i came across this girl blog.
i believe. everyday there should be something that made me smile.
& i found something that is worth my smile today.
and that is shopping & laughing at jokes w girl & sis , jojo (:

& Yes. some one. i thought of it again.
Reading that blog makes me think of what to do next .
but . i m having second thoughts.
what if . everything wont be as smooth as i thought it should be.
what should i do ?
But because i believe in miracle , i believe .
(:
childish and stupid . bt true. i believe.

its been long,
Long since i last went out w my family. all of them for a trip.
Longer since , i went out shopping w them .
suddenly. i felt that i m not a wonderful daughter to them ,
not a wonderful sister to my cutebrobrod. even though how much i claim to love him
I felt the huge dist between me & my family. even though how much i deny.
its there.
some change is irreversible. & i do not know how t make up to them.
i felt . so lousy .
why am i such a person.
& i even made mom cry.
i m terrible aint i?
shouldnt be living in this world.
i wish. i would be back to those days.
dad,mom, me & bro and wondergirl.

its beeen so long , so long since wonder left us.
you have been such a precious to our family.
bonding seeems much easier for us w you around
though you bites. though you scratch, though you are nt friendly at all.
bt . to us . you are always cute & cuddly.
always been thr for us till th last of your breath.
i`ve see you grow , like you seen mine.
being . always tgt .
Rmb . during primary school. after school i will be back telling you how much school is a bored & so on.
and you will be loooking me at those innocent eyes that seems to be telling me you know .
i told you . all about them. how they bully me . & yes. i know you are tearing w me,
wondergirl i miss you so damn frucking much!
i have so much more to tellyou.
when can i ever see you again.
R.I.P my beloved girl . i miss you forever.


i really wish to go back to those old sweet times.
no regrets ?
how easy to say , how hard to do.

Down-ness
if there is something i could do to make all this pain & trouble go away.
but there was nothing to it.

I felt so small. so damn tiny weeeny small.
nobody ever notices.
the feeling comes so insecure.
its like. i m a nobody.
nobody ever bothers how sad , how angry or happy am i.
truly nobody.
& yes i hate the feelings of left out , of not feeling impt.
to you * and yes. to my friends to others.
shit. --"
damn it. emo & i m hating the whole world
i hate myself more luhs!
--"
gosh. i m off!
shd be enjoying, yet i m emo-ing .
WHAT THE FISH!* =="

<> (:

Anw yes. i have been hanging out w the abv girl like almost everyday!!
yes. thats my girl. Cindy Lim lor!
hahaha. xD
well. my classmate &girlfriend you know!
of cos hangout w her lah!
she is the most steady friend i ever made.
thumbs up girl (:
& with her. laughter can fill up the whole day. of cos her day lah! cos i make her laugh mah!
correct not girl ?
lol.
Anw. more plans for us , girlfriends. to hang out after exams.

• Gym w girl , probably jo too.
• mahjonging w girl , jialing & irvin.
• movie w girl & jo right after exam . ( the two busy girls havent cfm --")
• chit chatting sessions w all my sisters. to catch up.
• butterfactory to support girl.
• xmas bash* ( did i describe correctly? )
• xmas gift exchanging.
• (: i would love girls night out though.

Anw. been hanging out since b4 common test starts.
studying always at starbucks & coffeebean
& i think the staffs must love us alot.
cause we damn support them. everytime buy huge choco or mocca frapucino.
heeees. anw. studied alot for commontestxzx this time.
Hopefully i can pass everything . except econs of cause =x
Anw, tmr gng t movie w girl & my bestbest sister. JOJOYEEEE
& before all the fun begin.
tmr is ecology paper
awwww. sadness. bt morn i m finding sis to make my nails over @ her house.
& yes. chit chatting session, you got alot t update me right. chou sis . =x
hahaha, and yes. poor sis is working like a Bull now. --
i m bored. and i m gng t slp now! byeeeee.



Beeen long since we last contact. agree?
did i ever pass by your mind? just by any coincidence ?
or for .. boring thoughts. did i ?
i yearn .. for .. some.thing.some.one.some.whr.

Y E S , i am gng t flunk my ECONOMICS
& MRS WONG IS SO GNG TO CALL MY DAD
f***k.
nothing goes right anymore. --"
anw. meeting girl study maths l8r.
hopefully my maths would pass , like give me B for everything okay.
well everything except . econs would be nice enough(:
i m nt greedy. hahahha
ciaos.

Night life.
seriously. what am i to you ? nor , who m i to care.
well. nothing more then a mere passer-by

Seriously , is there anything that wont change due to time?
Or will evrything eventually change.
I hate changes , well of cause good changes i don hate.
bt , why do everyone change ?
why dont thy be themselves , Regardless of characters or appearance.
yes, i know they wna chg appearance to appease ppl, to upgrade themselves.
bt . why do people char change too ?
from the way they treat people.. hais. its no longer the same .
sometimes close friends do leave you for like newer friends .
even how close both claim to be, but yes, like relationship, wil friends get tired of each oths too?
what is the definition of friendship ?
who can tell me? even yes a guy could change a friendship between two.
Too many questions change a close friendship toooo ?
so how do we define close sisters , buddies or friends?

Anw, pardon me fr the emotional post upstairs. too much happen.
& i found it better to get it out of me ?
hidden meaning yes? I hope Someone could somehow understand it .
anw . slacking w girl just now.
& Ahben help me w maths revision , Cfm A alrd mans.
tmr studying w classmates for SM&CEC
i hope i will be able to catch up.
3.0 Wait fr mama k (:

Yes. one more emotional paragraph --'
Seriously People tends to think more when thy gets older
.. i really wonder . Like what girl says.
" What would happen 2 years down the road? "
That really brought my lazy mind thinking.
will i be alrd having license , having beautiful car to drive to skl or
{ Bike? } well. will sisters be as close as ever ? will i still be thinking of the same him?
will fashion sense stil stay as like this --"
what would happen t all my friend?
yes. i really wonder.
well. i guess i can only wait for the answer .

(:

Girls NIGHT Out (:

as promised yeah, The photos of all my girlfriends.

and yes all are so gorgeous (:

* hahaah yes i heard some water droplets dripping though , don be envy i took picts w them uh! =x hahhaha,

well.

yes. so i will begin my non-crap post now.. ( ONLY NOW THEN BEGIN )

Anw, skl as usual ,

Mon i went to sentosa w girl & Jo though ,

yes , i promise photos will be upload l8r (:

And yes , Girl freaking woke me up at 6 in the freaking monday morning when thr is no class !

Motive : GO SENTOSA.

and yes , she is power man! woke me up liao still msg wake up the whole page --"

So woke up and prepare.

Damn cui --

my whole mind just wanna shut down and slp!

So anw took 963 and fuck , morning crowded w so many ppl sia!

wtf --"

and yes, heng one uncle let me sit . (:

bt well , girl and jo just nt as lucky, thy cant squeeze up the bus i m on, so yes. thy just wait for another .

& well. its amazing and quite ** funny to notice how ppl slp on bus.

some just in deep slp. hahahahha =x

no offence anw .

so yes. reach harbourfront FIRST ! and waited for them

bought things to sentosa & eat

& Yes. we suntan thr~ i almost turn to some roasted RIB or smth lik tt ,

s o , being hot & whatever alrd. Jo and me decide to dip in water .

(: COOLING I SAY & GIRL WAS ENJOYING HER SUNBATH all the while

anw. so till 12.3o , pack and went for bath,

thn back t skl. studytime (:

grab a bite w cliques b4 gng t *Empress class anw.

(:

-DAY ENDED -

Tuesday, 2dec.

I m late for class. cab t skl!

and yes. girl disturb me again this morning !

PS; girl i see its becoming a habit alrd ah , stop it !! --"

lol. kidding.

anw. Classs. and yes.

Cliques tday just discussed about those news that i duno.

so yes was very very attentively eating my fish&chips all the way.

Anw. i was like checking my hotmail & i saw things that disgust me totally. !!

Like ppl in norway & those icy cold countries.

Maybe they really have nothing to do. thy actually invented Killing seal as a sport .

Like pls , why is killing become sports now?! wtf?!

--" DISGUSTED. what has the world come to ?!

ppl like to commit suicide in a "new brainless way"

terrorist is out again , thanks to *////-/

& the fucking weather is getting more and more hot day by day ,

and NO MORE COLD WEATHER FOR WINTER AT HONGKONG?!!

why?!

is the world ending soon?

how is it gng t end.

wtf, i still do not want to die though yes i believe its ending soon