Yay. sissy is back frm tioman!
having a nice chat w her nw(:
& jojo sis is well frm tt stupid stomach thingy!
& awww. my flu! is still as bad as usual .
anw.
so . i ran frm lessons again! well.
leopard dont chg its spots lah! i understand it now.
anw . I m still not skipping hydraulics. so i didnt broke my swearing part luh!
and i m holding on t tt "Vow"
YAY (:
hahaha, anw. gng t kx nueer bday tmr,(;
Hope i do enjoy , lovvveee (:

i m not okay.
time has passed.
diff people come & go . bt none left footprints as deep as you in my heart.
i know you are just one of th every thing i have t go through in my life.
bt forgetting all of tht happy days w yoo is really hard.
i cant bear t throw away evrything.
whhy did you lie when you left me .
you told me . we are still friends. bt nthg nthg shows me tt we are still friend.
i find it even hard t maintain one fine sentence w you
let alone a conversation.
evry part of me just missed those happy times w you
i know i shouldnt cling on t you. t the past.
bt just by thinking & looking over &over thru th past conver really made my day .
& eventually it became clear tt i havent gotten over you.

-谢谢你曾经爱过我给我最美的经过 .

I just cant forget . fuck !
wtf is happening t me?!
--"
i saw smth . smth triggers my past again.
smth makes me so so addicted t him at first.
oh damn it . i miss his oh so funny jokes & shitty craps .
argh . whatever.
something i will forget . i promise i will do it !
for his & mine sake.
he found his happiness. yeah. i know i saw it mahs!
yeah, bless you & her okay!
i m lik a fuktard here missing yoo yet you are enjoying life t the fullest!
--" oh shit. i m heating too much uh!
shall stop here.
tmr job int w li (: yeah.
we shall do it ! doggggy . mummy loves is coming ((:
& i superb love jialing lah ! ohhhhhh so sibey cute lah !((;

YEAHS((: Tmr is a brand new term of first yr ((;
heh , i m kinda excited .
bt classes in th early morning & boring lectures just gonna make my day ):
bt lovely friends & Funneh jokes gonna brighten my day agn ((:
heh, super love my new poly friends luh & of cos my sisters.
hehehe.
oh yeahs, ytd i went out w jojoyee,winxteo & lynettechua
hehe . though its a short shopping trip . bt i have much shou huo (:
one new graphic spag & black flats.
mygod. i abs love my new "impulse buying"(:
however . i miss my lovely sissy. Leexinru ,
no lame jokes & Critics time.
hahaha, miss you luhs sissy . come out soon okay )):

last word for someone:

don contact me if you are so scared of ppl knowing,

i hate this kind of hiding everywhere

everything ended. i say so.

i wish you al the best (:

I never feel this way for a very long time
Those hopes all lost.
Darkness all surround me, no one t save me when i scream
no one t hear me out when i am feeling so bad.
I am so shag.

Now i understand when ones get depressed or sad , the best way is not t smk or drink th stress away . nor gng t your friends & telling them how you feels.
it is t type or write everything out.
pouring out everything by expressing them by words.
yeahs. so now i will start pouring Everything ! Names have been changed anw *

So yeah. everything now is in a mess for me .
i donknow how t cheer up , i m so stress ,
so stress by everything dropping lik a bomb on me.
Friendship , new life, hairstyle , job, studies & rs , i am even stress by the Doomsday .
how silly i m --"
Honestly . My job is like sh*t . & I THOUGHT i have found smthg good.
i have t knock ppl door .( and basically i m dng old block**)
so imagine . Fuckers ppl who tell me " see i live at this so old block i m so poor lah . arbo you give me money btr right ? "
&& people that say " i really vegetarian / never go thr / never go out dine !
shit yoo lah . you forever lock yourself at home and rot & die btr lah!
--
okie i m fa xie -ing !
i feel btr scolding them
seriously th job is not for me ! why !?!
bcos i cant laugh & smile when ppl reject me ! --
& the company first policy is t still smile no matter how stupid th ppl make you feel --

Ya friendship !!
i really can use my fingers count how many true friends i have !
really finger can count alr.
when i have troubles i only have just a number t find.
& when i have happineess i have thousands
fuck ! -- whr has all those promises of gng thru thick & thin gone t ?!
vanish in th fucking air?
i regret . spending so much precious times on all tt ppl .
& i m really stil thinking . wht are friends really for?
make use of each other. getting benefits frm some way or another
i treat each & every friends lik gems . & wht fuck i get back!
i promise i m not gng t be so trusting next time . & i promise t be really anti-social.
i don need much friends anw.
i just need true friends tht will stand by me thick or thin & share my happiness .

& seriously through my life journey , i have doting dad who helps me when i m in trouble,
i have just a few friends tt willing t stand through me.
i passed my psle . i passed my o level ,
i have nice nice peepos coming in &out of my life.
who helps me . ( Gui ren )
i have not have any misfortunates ,
i have healthy body & mind.
wht do i have t stress abt !
& tts it. cos i have not accomplished anything
i m not good in studies nor job .
i have been in and out of job
i cant stand ppl giving me attitude.
Who th hell do i think i m
i m not born w thousands & thousands stacko of money stacking on me .
i m not born genius
i m not born w model life!
\shit i just have t work harder LAH!
bt i no motivation !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just want t die .
die
die
die
die

& DAMN . someone say ppl love also hard.
fuck you okay!
--"

Heys peepos i m back t post.

Sunday again,

same didnt went anywhr. Sty home & i make fondue for daddy ((:

hahaha, eh bt abit fail cos choc abit chao tah =x

hahaha. anw. happy fathers day t all fathers esp mine (:

teehhee, i AM bias ):

lols

13june

Anw. celeb Jo sis bday simple yet sweet.

Thy came t my hous for bbq.

bought alot of things for th bbq. & we talk & eat & drink!

omg. it becomes a small gathering actually,

hahaha, enjoyable night w sis l8r on.

played game & "snap" OMG fun!

guessing games. & wynnee keep tio. hahah,

pooor sis. & hahahaha, we ate choc fondue late at night!

3 am thn i went t bath & we slpt at ard 5 plus. TIREDDDDDDDDD):

14 june.

Bright new day. surprise my precious jo w cake!

omg, damn nice cake.

& for once we trust ulu shop . hahaha

bt l8r dad told us sweeheng is actually a known shop & has many branches over spore.

uh (: not bad uh ru . hahah my choice . *applauds(:

so anw . so ard 1 plus thy went home & i went back t see my Tang xin Feng bao .

Whooo. nice. & so now finish posting i m back t seeing my show & slp(:

tmr gotta wrk agn.

GOOD LUCK T ME ((:

溏心風暴.
The greatest , most touching & lovely show i ever seen.
though i havent seen till the end. bt i m sure this show no matter what i will watch all th ep till th end (:

上环文咸西街“唐记海味铺”在业界享负盛名，由一间小小老铺，发展成坐拥六亿资产及物业之海味生意。坐拥数亿身家的唐仁佳及正室凌巧，一家九口，为名副其实之草根富户，故唐家并无豪门的冷漠疏离，反之一家和谐融洽。而主力维系家庭温馨的，正是唐家两父子 - 人称“大鲍细鲍”的唐仁佳及唐至安。　　三十年前，佳把安拾回来收养，安生性豁达，从未为养子身份自卑，反之全心全意帮忙打理海味铺生意，亦把唐家上下当作自己亲家人，对唐家事无大小尽心尽力，对自己的身世有着感恩的心。佳亦一直视安如己出，父子二人感情深厚。安“遗传”了佳的个性，两父子目标一致：努力令唐家齐齐整整，落力以欢乐感染全家。
HEH. the show info. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED.

Anw. i can see my show online alr.
so. i will end here.
tkc CIAOS ppl (:

I always used t wonder as a kid when would i grow up?
but now as i grow little by little everyday.
matured each & every day.
see lil & lil of how cruel the adult world can be .
i finally realize how good it is t be a innocent child w nothing t troubled about.
not money , not family , not friends & definetely no BGR.
i hate everything , evry part of my life now.
my life is just routine. everyday i m repeating all the same things all over &over again.
i wanted t make my family proud , make myself proud one time!
but i cant find the chance.
i really donknow what i can do.

I am drifting away.
drifting away from all i once hold &loved so dear
Yes , maybe you are guessing family?
Yes tts right.
i have nothing t worry or troubled about now.
no bgr.
Its only family problems
Now then i understand when one grows old , thy will actually think more of the past & all of th things thy once used t take for granted.
i miss all the days i used t spend with my family.
all the jokes ard the house.
& all the outings. bt as i grow older &older.
i hear lesser of th jokes. i notice dad is not as strong as last time.
& mom starts t cough & get sick alot.
& me. i m out of the house all the times
Sunday is family day, EVERYBODY went out t sci centre
EVERYBODY but me!
cos my dad scared interupt my day programme.
bt i alr reject all the people who ask me out that day.
& i got a big tiffs w dad . i said alot of hurtful things t my dad who only scared t disturb my day . who only want me t be happy .
Bt he doesnt know . i can be happy even spending just one day , one happy family outing w them.
i know i m very bad t say all those hurtful things t him tt day
bt i m just too sad & troubled. i m sorry daddy.

Okay everyone i cut bangs! I REALLY CUT IT LAH .

Say i m brave man peepos.

Okay! & thr thr i don suit this stupid style! so not me at all.

bt damn. friends say i wil get used t it ):

jo said it was better thn last time & li told me not bad luhs =="

It was really an impulse t cut luhs!

bt . enough of rantings i shall wait for this small onion-y hair t grow--"

Okay so last night i had a dream weird one.

a dream so true tt i almost feel lik i m really dying inside there

& tday my mood was lik totally spoilt by tht dream .&

tada. i was home whole day ):

seriously sad luhs.

Anw, i m ending here.

Hope my hair grows fast.

TSKTSK ):

Heys everyone,
My common test had start. so sorry tt i didnt post =(
bt aft common test . i m having plans plans plans!
work, sleep, & hanging out w my girls!
have not contact my ru sis for long! wonder hows she dng!
anw! i have a super duper high&happy mood tday.
reason being: cos My dearest bro , Jason had send a longlong letter t me by mail (:
sweeet(: & he rmb my dad bday tooo.
ohmygod! its been so long since he wrote t me !
awwwwwwwwwwww i miss you brother plus { aiai } childish names we used t call each oths,
guess we have really grown up(:
& guess wht best! he promise t come back t singapore soon .
hahaha, i love you lah bro(: super love.

Anw. so my common test was lik!
errrr? maths easy & hydraulics confirm flunk luhs):
neway .
its gng t be the last test soon & upcoming would be th hols again=D
ohhhhhhhhhh Duper happy(:
so , nothing more t update? haha guess my life just bored nial . lols
will be back w more posts&picts thn .
Lastly i super miss Jason Dage , wished he will be back w manymany presents for me soon(: