Yayneesss to being A-L-I-V-E & H-E-A-L-T-H-Y (:

i saw a damn touching show on chnl 8 Just now !

finally singapore shows are making big improvement & finally it is worth seeing .

Anw , its abt reality show that feature those less fortunate family in singapore.

& for tday eposoide they are featuring on a family of 4 siblings , & sadly three of them are retards . The only normal one are protective over them & don let them to be independent hence all the burden of tking care and earning money was his responsiblity .

And seriously i think this kind of brother damn goood (: bt thy do nt know hygiene ,

ND seriously , i do not know singapore still got Families in this kinda poor state.

fuck
! i should seriously read And see more of the News! ):

i wannnaaa be volunteeer lah! Bt toooooooooo bad i m afraid of cockroach & small little pest

& after watching this show i find that my problem is too small to be a problem !

BEST IS ME & MY WHOLE FAMILY ARE STILL HEALTHILY LIVING (:

Bt well, sometimes i do get emo & suddenly think of all the negative happening

Like tday, well definetely not a good day i shd say

i spend lik Half a day thinking of him & wht the fuck is happening to us?

everything is like turning frm bad to worst .

& i just think of him like a fool .

i tried to walk away , bt i could not help turning back to see if there is any glimpse of hope .

do you understand how much i fall now?

i feeel so damn fuck up now ,

imagine i ... am lik helplessly watching you and me distant away.

Fuggg . cn you pls at least tell me smth?

Like byebye? or smth at least to let me know you are here before?

& seriously friends and sister are nt helping at all !

Thy are just encouraging me to give up give up give up !

fuggggggggg. I Donwan to give up wout tryin lah! bt i lost my courage somehow .

& even i donwan to give up , i must,

bcos i feel so damn inferior .

i just fall a little tooo deep

Bt i m sure it will all get btr in Time .