我爱上的 是他瞳孔里的太阳, and STUPID MATHS.

ARGHHH. GRRR! i cant concentrate on my Maths Online.

I JUST CANT !

anw, pon the whole session of school tday.

stayed home , sleep , eat , watch tv and slp again.

awww. boring life .

actually suppose to be mahjong session and thn . yes , 3gu have smth on so its cancelled.

I Guess a day without school is quite bored as well.

& i really really cant fucking conc on my maths online as well as maths homewrk that are suppose to be due long way ago before time.

and god , my EH is still not complete yet.

--" fucking rats and markets.

Arghh . goodness . new year isnt over and yet i m here scolding like thrs no tmr.

really , you wouldnt like to be me . even for a day --"

hell. loads . of . uncomplete . things.

i know its still new year , i know i shouldnt be thinking of all these things.

but , its beyond my control .

emotions and feelings do come and go like encyopedia states. or whatever .

i miss him suddenly.

miss my perfect & wonderful "dream-on guy"

yes. i know now i have this perfect one. but he is not the one i really love .

hes not him . not my "dream-on guy"

i miss those msges. those contacts. those yo , those .feeling i once had for him

i miss him and everything.

i know i shouldnt . i know its gone . i know theres nothing left now.

not even a mere friend.

the answer is all along place before my eye.

he treated me like another mere stranger.

tell me. have you treated me more thn just another stranger? friend? have you?

Sometimes. tv reminds me of you, sometimes mtv , sometimes even songs.

we havent had any real memory tgt.

i should have no problem forgetting you.

No , not that i still hope for anything.But . i really miss you.

cmon. scold me , say i m stupid. say i m a clown. say i m a fool.

sometimes i really hope i m another person , someone you would stop and have a look

someone you will really love and say "hey , you are adorable" or any nice words.

to me . you will never have nice words to say.

i have asked you why.

your answer was just , dunno , maybe your face too qian bian !

am i ?

我爱上的 是他笑起来的迷幻

我爱上的 是他瞳孔里的太阳

我爱上的 是我逃不掉的逃亡

Happy CNY humans& Animals ( Eg charger my dog k )

Yesyes! 1year 1 time taking angbao days have come again! are you excited?!!

Anw. for me yes! i m super lah!

Ytd . was chu yi .

Went yipo house to collect Angbao early in the morning !

Sit & chit chat awhile. have some porridge , tk angbao nd . remisce yi xia.

thn off . me and my fam went to have prata at batok! ALIF PRATA .

Really superb nice.

thn camwhore w dearest family over there. thn off went to Uncle house and visit.

Played mahjong there. Heng ka.. happy ah me !

this mooo yr is really nice. won 2.4o ((:

okay la. not alot right ( to you all la) for me is alot liao ( cos i always lose 10 dollar upp )

--"

thn back home play Mahjong again. 3 ka mahjong!

sibey fun w family play! bro also come chap jit ka!

hahahaha, very very funny. But ! i still lose 10 dollar!

seriously , cause mummy sit my lucky "dong" what!!

thn yea. as you can guess winner is mommy lor!! (:

thn. talk on phone awhile & slpt (:

Chu er .

HAVENT GO BAI NIAN YET!

WLAO!

AND

Jiale got sorethroat nd Pimples.

she feeeel so .. chui now --"

& yes. she misses him alot now.

he is the one that makes her feel best .

arghhhh.

--" chui-ed **

I m yours Truely. (:

A lot of people say it’s best to keep yourself busy so you can keep your mind off your sorrows, but at the end of the day when you’re all alone, you still have to face the hurt no matter what you do and it’s about standing tall even when the world is crumbling down before your eyes.
Our desire and need to express our thoughts and feelings are one of the most important aspects

i Love my everydays.

Anw. long time no post. busy w proj & friends.

Got no time for computer. Cause i neeed beauty sleep mahhhhhhh! haha xD

I shall post things other time.

as . this post is to thank someone . (:

you know who you`re .

though you don bother to read my blog .

Been out w him these few nights.

Nothing can compare to those times.

Foods surprises . the way you smile , the way your driving sucks! xD

the way you commented on my . nearly nude make up .

the way , everything seems so perfect w you ard.

Thank for putting my life in order again.

(;

Wths! i m so boredddddddddddd.
bloody dance class held so early in th morn !
& , yes. i m waiting for sis to have her break!
& DAMNIT. kangxi is stuck at the funniest part
. and gr8. i think mommy have xiao S Talent btw ( don laugh )

=(
i m boreddddddddddddddddddddddd.
gr8. who can entertain me . Fullstop. arghh
bye lah!

well life hasnt been good , or at least i think it wasnt.

everything aint going smooth

regardless studies. friendship , problms and oths.

damn it . & its not even the yr of cow yet

& all these shit happen.

wtf. i got go bai tai sui one lorr!

mai aneh leh! --"

But still worst is yet to come i think.

Anw. SM is really the most suckiest.

bloody hell. suck all my brain juice away. but in the end ans still wrong.

nabey. wondering how people manage to understand and do. --"

weird . or maybe it was only me.

Enuf of sch. as if that is not enough .

my workplace that bitch is .making me piss w sacrcastic comments and fuging attitude.

cause she knows my mother say . i cant offend anyone.

arghhhhh.pissed pissed pissed. i hate you bitch chuwawa.

i bloddddddy hate you really.

and as if . this wasnt the end.

me& "anybody out there" is .. fading. ( anybody=everybody)

aiya. .damn it lahs.

its always the same. nothing changes. nobody appreciates.

fuck all these

i m seriously tired.

i wna slp all day.

(:

杨丞琳 - 太烦恼
一样的化妆
一样的头发大家通通太像
多无聊啊剪杂志不如自己想
学谁不如自己闯每个人总会有一件事
要比别人强没有那么漂亮
就更用心化妆当身材没有办法想
努力微笑放光芒
我烦恼
太被动并不好
烦恼太冲动也不好
烦恼自信在动摇
烦恼烦恼钻进了牛角
我烦恼太聪明并不好
烦恼太愚蠢更不好烦恼
谁都不明了
烦恼烦恼太烦恼的苦恼
别让昨天变围墙
要拿今天当翅膀可以失恋不能失去了
对幸福的渴望暗恋最好撑把伞
小雨大雪都会下爱就像高跟鞋
越美的越容易拐一下难免受伤
重要的是不要留下疤没有阴影才不害怕
为了梦想 痛着成长烦恼
太被动并不好烦恼
太聪明并不好

=====================

Yeps on top is one super nice song (:
i think lah.
hear and hear become super nice.
Bu liang xiao hua . damn nice tooooo,
my god. rainie like so damn cute only (:
Anw.
School reopening tmr ! i m so gng t die !
MORE LAO FUO YE , MORE PROJECTS DUE DATES ,MORE DANCE CLASS, MORE HANGING OUT( weelll not a bad point ) However all this .. makes me wna just lie at my bed at not go to skl !
But well school also have good points too. like nice fish and chips , yummy (:
oh well. lets see hows my first day skl in 2009 goes.
hopefully well (:

do i even come across your mind for a second .

even a second , that would be enough .

but well. i know you are living so well without me.

well. i am too. dont worry.

i m taking everything well in stride.

i m just a step to .

how i wish i got the amnesia.

whatever/-

New year . late post btw.

so belated Happy New Year Everyone.

Anw. New year this year was fun .
Like xmas. we had a unusual one . w the usual girls. which in simpler form i will call them
'my girls"
yeah, so bcos mum was back in sin. & i lose my freedom .
girls decided to find me at my house kopitiam,
waited for everyone t come.
Jo was the first . seee lil nyona. Jo was so fan by my questions !! whahahha xD
thn went down for our late dinner at 10 pm !
ZI CHAR! hahaha.
total : 36bucks! cheap not ?!! hahahahaXD
and yes. went to buy asahi . beer? lol thn up to my house drink !
drank a lil . cos its damn bitter! girl drink up mine . i beg her anw =D
thn . played a lil game w poker. & see tv.
talk & camwhore.
usual LAH!
lol. thn cindy&winx was first to go. as winx lompang cindy gooody car .
thn awhile l8r it was ahru !
& me and jo was left .
JO THE PIG SLPT IMM! --" so i was lik talking to wall. In the end. slpt too! bt nevertheless
I had Best New Year . Not to mention . a gr8 thanks to all my precious girls who pei-ed me on all the special occasions.
- BIG BIG THANKS & BIG BIG HUGS.
ps : you all are the ones who make it fun , make all works out gr8ly. loveya all much!

Anw .2008 .
great year i should say.
i had dreams that come true, i made new friends. i still had my girls w me,
sadness. well thrs is bound to be. but i overcome it all. & yes i m still strong . still standing.
& i got over it soon enough.
Sistership got abit drifted in the middle of the year. however . we pulled it back again.
still as strong as ever.

my best best sisters . Jo, winx & ru .
Jo : thanks for being my listener , always willing to acc me to whr i want to go , always willing to talk t me, always willing to lend me tissue. i know alot of things will change as time goes by .bt one thing for sure. our sistership wont (: i will be thr if you need me .

Winx: thanks for advice & always pon lessons pei me ah. you know how much i love you one lah. so hhahaha. thanks & love you babe. if you have any problems just ask me out talk at starbucks k ! hahha. or our lao di fang! wish 2009 will be a goodyear for you. & ps . i know you hate her. but stop wanting t make video leh! lol xD Hope your next guy will be the one for you. (;

Ru : you are one of those true friends. always giving true comments. i know this yr is abit tough for you! bt as o level is finishing . you are embarking on a new journey. Poly life! hope you can cope and . hope 2009 will be a good one for you. study hard girl. love you(: meetup for shoppings sooon kays(; loveeee ya sissy. appreciate you always plan surprises for me at my bday!(:

Cindy : Girl, thanks for ya company in lonely lonely new polytechnic school. you made my polylife colourful w gossips and heart to heart talk. thanks for ya endless advices.& suggestions. though sometimes seems abit slutty. hahahaha =x
lol. hoope 2009 will be a nice yr for you. and cont to make my polylife colourful leh! don call me sotong anymore!!! hahahaxD

Jialing: Funny girl i should say. life is never boring w her. Poly life seems so so so fun w her!
Lessons seems so lively ! hahaha . & please go out w us more lehhhhhhhhhhhhh. (;
love you girlys(;


Well. time for new yr resolution eh? lol

- Not to be lateQueen anymore .
- Change my Bloody attitude.
- Not to be tooo supertitious.
- 3.0 for GPA
- achieve my car license sooon (:
- Never ever . fall in love w the wrong kind again!
- Spend More time w Family
- heh( secret for last) (:

i hope so much for cny soooooooooon.
i cant bloody wait for new clothes&Angbao lah! =x
tmr is a saturday again. which means. wrking for me again .
well hopefully i wont be late!
(:
wordy wordy. picts. will be uploaded soon (:
love ya all. readers.

When is the day .

the day i decided to give up. is all a blur now.

days spend tgt and having fun seems so much like a dream now.

i only hope you are happy

yes. don wry anybody. don guess. i have no feelings for him . or whoever i mention.

(: