i Am that fake! You don need t care!

That "her" is really pissing me off
i guess i really need t release all my hatred here
its ok if yoo all donknow who itz.
you all don need t know.
i am just posting here to let myself calm down!

I cant fcuking stand myself.
i am being so fake ard her.
I hate fake people & i am one myself
but normally is all lik that.
evryone is fake. to friends ; family & even strangers thy don even Know
ppl just wan t angkat others bola. to get into their good shoes or whatsoever!
normally just t gain more friendship or have benefits .
isnt it th same like th surbodinates & th boss?
ahhhhhhhhh i am getting all oout of topic here!



she is this , she is that!
i donknw what. I just hate her!
perhaps jealousy took th better of me.
she don have t try t loook perfect .
she is that perfect to everyone
But me?! i have t try! i have t do what shit! & all i get was fucking failure
FUCKKK!
i do all these & she did nothing but she gets it
fcuking unfair eh?
i thought it was suppose t be fair lik wht you give is wht you get?
maybe we were close in th past.
but i suppose alot of times you were just acting t be close t me.
i look through all th past old conversation & think through all the things we have been through
woah. its been really foolish of me t think you are really my friend.
you hurt me once & i forgave yoo.
i donknow what the shit come over me that makes me forgive you.
but now
i don want t act all cheery & shit you with all the happy & bullshit crap
i aint gonna be your friend.
you may see that jealousy took over me .
i am not going t care.
shit !

PS: its my rantings pls dont tag or scold what shit cos ya donknow my feeling !

HELLO PEEPS!
back t post.
was busy th last few days ; or rather lazy,
hahas.
anw.

22Nov

Went t Xiaovivien bday chalet with Ray

hahaa. so funny th whole journey.

yeah & i am a kinded soul

i let my place t the old uncle but ...

another uncle sit instead of that stoning old uncle.

lols.

&& so we sat all th way t pasir ris!

so far&tired.

reach thr & we buy bubble tea

hahha. funneh! its very sweet lahs!

hahaha xD

thn rch their chalet

okay ; loner at first . talk on th phone with jojoyee.

she keep msn with her boy i think or wht shit! & i am lik talking t the air!

so pekcek! =x

& thn ray come talk t me. hahaa

I keep cui him go home! yea i was too bored thr

& we went home exactly at 8.45 cos pool was full

saw gerald thr (:

home& watch my Fang yang de xing xing!

whooo.i love lin zhi ying . xiao zhi!

he damn cuteee lors! && he is tiongxim tiongxim t ahxing in th show!

wheets(:

i love Fang yang de xing xing ! ( greatly recommended show by me ^.^)

23Nov .

Started painting my room

didnt went t support ahru on her first day!

lols. i am busy!!

Thn its damn fun painting but tiring!

dad helps us run errands while agnes & me keep painting!

while painting alot of things came t my mind.

i wrote his name everywhr in my bedroom walls.

but well. it has been paint over now . so

no one can see it (:

hhahas.

but i really miss him so lahs!

T.T

had imagination all the time.

24nov.

Th room is finally finish!

yeahs! purple bedroom for use!

^.^ gng shopping tmr with my shitty jojoyee.

i miss her damn lots!

&& we are gnna visit our sissys!

hahaha, i miss all of them!

haha, & yeh i am gnna buy tht fcuking shoe i never hear b4!

shit th boss!

-.-

monday i am starting wrk!

& pls visit me when free ppl !

ahhaha, tkc everyone!

Love&misses.

Would you still remember me after we left this skl?

i donknw why its been like so long t me

i always had imaginations i wish was true.

if is possible i hope i would be th one that will make you smiles

if you need me ; i promise i will just be a phone call away ((:

Heys everyone
back t post.





2o Nov.
whoolalala.
lucky day.
went t job interview w Ru.
Marinaaa. Far but th journey thr is fun larhs& giddy,
went thr walk ard as th "devil" told us thr are probs.
so walk ard played arcade & soo.
niceee! joke ard! & photo retard pic tooo
time flys when we are having fun
thn went t oriental htl & took application form frm tht devil .
thn write liao. left t bugis t find winx at her wrk placee
hahaa. & meet jo thr.
she blame me for smthg! rarrrrr!~
haha,
thn find winx saw her manager thr thn disiao want interview.
but i actually got in!
whooohoooooo~ happy^.^
i gt two jobs now (:
One start on Next wk at oriental.
& another is 10 dec- 30th dec at lot1
come visit me if freee(:
heehhe.
Back t topic.
thn went t airport with Ru&jo t send yj off.
is actually all a surprise.But yj is not surprised!!
-.-
reach thr early. thn went t sit sit & play ard thr
haha. my sisters are real fun t be with! (:
thn play ard & camwhored.
yj mother help us photo grp& also girls alone one,
hahaa. she say she will send us when back & develop fr us!
haha. thks aunt (;
haha. it was real fun ytd
gave yj his gift
&finally after much fun&camwhoring. Yj had t go in .
everyone bid goodbye t him , the atmosphere was sad as everyone see his backview gng further & finally dissapear behind th gate.
hais.
but no one cried. thankfully.
thn went home aft sending him off.
mrt-ed t cck& sit cab home ; chuanmin treat(:
hahas.
thn played ds till 3.
whoooooooo. tiredd.
i cant wait for job t begin (:





Anw. i have smthgs for my sisters only.
Exclusively t jojoyee , winx & xinru(:
:Though now all of us will be busy with our wrk
but i really hope our sistership would not end here .
maybe sometimes we do have heated argument&rough patch
but in th end we also make up quite quickly!
i really do cherish the sisterships between all of us.
even if you all don treat me as sisters. in my heart . th 3 of yous will forever be my sisters.
When i am sad ; you all will be thr for me telling me not to cry & telling me its not my fault
Whn i hav wishes. all of you all would help me t grant it.
We have fun tgt always.
sisters will always be in my heart no matter how far i go next time!
all this memories wil not be forgotten
; the day when i am sick at chalet ; yoo all took care& help me till i am well regardless of what shit i gave.
When i donknw how t bike . you all encourage me.
& even help & wait for me & not treat me like a burden.
thanks (:
i am sry for my stupid attitude & always give you all probs.
i will try t change!
Sisters forever!











the timeless Memories (:

Can anyone teach me th method t cure heartache?

hais. is all expected.

i shdnt have trial & error.

my maths was not good at th first place.

why i want t try & play.

now the saddest is still me & not.

i donknow why i feel so heartache.

he just tell me tht & my whole heart sank

friends & nothing more.

all is this ending.

wtf is love man?!

i swear i am not gng close t anyone agn .

i am not gng t fall in love again!

rarrrrrrrr~!!

19Nov

gng t find job l8r

have many diff job t search frm

bt all are far.

sian ar. find one job also so hard.

tmd! suay ka si si lah i tday!

hais. & xinru is slow! & suay tday too.

hahaha, same with me lols

5 man ru!

thn l8r night maybe meeting jo go outside hav a heart t heart talk.

i hope i will be calm by thn

& wed my dearest jason will be back t spore for hols fr a wk or so!

i am gng t spend many many time with him!

yeah man! i miss my best friend loads lah!

((: awaiting for your returns.

nothing is impossible.

even this is just an obstacles i am sry its too much

i wil cya thn.

hopefully everything is still the same

all th best for you k

you hav got a friend for life i promise (:

Its hard t keep th tears inside me.

i only want you to notice me. Is it that difficult?

Helloo ppl , i am back frm my 4e5 class chalet !

it was fun lah! ((:

First Day ; 14Nov

wake up & pack !

left home t jasmine house as her dad drives us go (:

met up with winx first.

& off we went t chalet after meeting up & tk all th food,

reach thr. & saw raymond thy all reach liao.

thn we went up t see our room.

OMG! damn fcuking dusty!

thn we decide t clean up .

at first i was suppose t sweep but ..

due t some reasons . winx help me out (:

thks t all my sisters.

chalet was finally clean & ready t be used

after cleaning up ; went t prepare for bbq!

& subsequently everyone arrives .

& The fun begin.

toook pics with Mr low after he arrives.

& he told me i shd be able t go t tourism courses! whoohooo!

^.^ but i stillhave no confidence in maths! wtf!?

okay back t topic thn after tht photo tking session.

& yj & co went t fishing or playing football -.-

Thn slp ard 4 plus (:

2ndDay; 15 nov

Most of them went t graduation lunch

so me , jas & Xinru went t rent bike & ride.

thy had a hard time teaching me ride
!

whahahah! & after tht ride t downtown east

& jas&ru catch one mickey mousee call billy?!

-.-

after tht cycle back & return bike. thn went back t chalet & rest.

Evening. all of them came back with black face .-.-

but some happy. Cause thy see lots of prettys thr ! -.-

Lameeeeeeeeeeeeee!

& sisters thn showed me pics tk-en at grad lunch.

At th night raymond parents come.

His mother is so humourous laa!

omg ! Funny & Cuteee.

=x

& after that played zhong ji mi ma with them!

Fun (:

& after tht rest . but hav a lil conflict with my sisters.

DMN! cried & ru & jas came t an wei me.

Jas lame jokes just make me laugh like nobody biz!

haha. its very very funny laahh!

& after awhile smthgs happen. & we are back t normal agn (:

anw. thks jas & Ru (:

3rd Day 16nov

Dmn, the day was not fun for me at all !

cried & cried.

wtf! i am sick & i cant go changi t see my Ahguaaaa!

damn!

but thks t friends&sisters.

i am okay at last !

i Damn love my Girlfriends.

thy keep say ni ming tian hui ok de.

haha. so cutee & sweet of them!

& also t kel as he keep help t tkcare of me&jo whn oths went cycling.

hahah, thks yeahh! (:

my impression of 4e5 totally change on that day! yeah

i Love 4e5 ! A big family tgt (:

17Nov. 4th day.

Woke up at 8 plus.

preprared & so..

but as i am too tired i went back slping tgt with my girls after i packed!

Fever really subsides.

& so. claudia keep waking us up,

haha. cos she was jing zhang.&& she is good lahh! (:

i love claudiaa. gng t post lots pictures after i recieve thm frm my Sisters (:

((:

& 11 leave chalet.

went t bus stop t tk bus t interchange t tk taxi home

share with xinru , raymond &jo!

& i only leeft like fcuking $2.2o

xinru reach first . followed by jo ; me thn raymond.

didnt give my jia zhan to him. hahha. just need give ru & jo

! weeeeeeeeeeee. ok i am not in bad debts! thks t raymond (:

&& home sweet home!

YEAHHH. 4E5 ROCKS! I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT OUTING!

&& all th best to my job hunting next mon!

i am so afraid of rejection.

some say we are not meant t be.

cn two different world people be tgt?

i regret once & i am not gng t regret th second time

chance is all i need.

some say you will not reject.

wht will be your choice after i tell you.

baby ; i want t call you baby & make you mine .

RARRRRRRRRRRR. i donknow wht i am writing anw! -.-

long-timed pict wit my dearest Sister
Me&Xinru (:

Sisters (:

Memories& Dreams are always sweet ;

but reality are always th opposite.

Happy Belated t my dearest Sihua Baobei anw

stay pretty & happy!

everlasting with your boy (:

anw. tday went t sim lim sq with my family .

quite boring laa thr.

help sister check abt wii price only t know she donwan it animore

-.-

thn walk ard .

anw. simlim has lots & lots of bargains & cheap stuffs

mom bought mp4 thr.

& i bought nothing ):

anw. after waiting fr th comp t be repaired ; ( lasted for like 11 - 3)

we thn headed t Woodlands central or centre t buy my skinny

bought two skinny.

grey&black ! heh !

cancel off wishlist*

thn mom bought KFC back!

omg. mom is damn good tday!

hahah (:

Anw ; i will post abt my trip with sister t paya lebar & bugis.

shiok!

& Tiring i shd say

so meet winx & jo at th coffeeshop that sells very good fish beehoon!

& tadaaa. thy eat thr.

& i eat my fav rojak! so nicee (:

thn off we went t meet xinru & jasmine.

& thn we headed t payalebar.

ahahha. damn funny la th journey thr!

wahlao never had one trip so fun!

jasmine is tooo funny lahhh! hahaha =DD

& thn reach thr. went t th cityPlaza &

it was full of danger& DMN hot lahh!

but fun .

(:

reach thr & we went t explore but find nothing t our likings =x

thn we headed off t bugis .

&& i caught my eye on a teee-shirt (:

with writings like donknow wht eat shit & Die!

i am getting one sooon ! && my red heels

& black off shoulder ! (:

hehehe! (:

thn went t eat with my girlfriends

ate porridgee.

weeeeeee~ Niceee.

& thn photo wibs girlfriends!

grp & individual!

hehehehe! i love them lah!

thn headed t arcade.

& played games.showed abit of anti-donknow-what thr.

& played with jo th games .

FunFunfun!

& thks for jasmine lendd me money to diao tht mushroom!

ahhaha (:

heys everyone i am back t post!
hehehe. yeah .
Stil left with one more paper!
&& tada i am freee ((:

Anw . ytd chris , raymond ,xinru&Jo came my house for mahjong.
hahaha it was funny! i first time play money!
& th boys say thy want t go home whn play with me!
stupid idiots! thy keep saying i am slowwwwwwwwwwwww~
roar. but i did improve l8r on.
anw. if calculate i did lose ard 8 ++ or so.
& being a good soul . Raymond did not geygao Money!
wahahahah! & thus i save my $8 up!
anw ; sry t raymond . cos my laptop cant go maple & let you win tht scroll =x
thn xinru come ard 3 plus 4. we play mahjong agn!
& this time that big-head chris complains of bored
so Ru thinks of playing heart attk with mahjong!
stupid idea but nice!
jo always gets heart attk & she always win!
hahaha.
aft playing for a while.
went eat. && err. i was being di-siao!
& thn we gossips lik normal.
very funny sia. hahaha. & thn home sweet home
bid goodbye t the boys & pei-ed ru thy all wait for bus &
meanwhile talks.
thn homee sweet home !!
hahahaha XD
i love nu xu dang jia (:
Shuai eh th shunfa .. WEET-U-WEET .

ok. i am cutting hair l8r !
and th next post will be post of me& my girlfriends outing.
hahaha. jasmine Darn funny!
( with pics) waakakaka! bye For NOWWWW! (:

O level is gng t end soon.
4 more papers.
& th last paper will be .
& tday is th day we know each other.
time t draw a fullstop ?

Anw . had O levels this few days.
i really hate myself alot!
I had so many careless in O.
& i so zi zuo cong ming during sci!
roar!
hate it larh!
why do i so zi zuo cong ming!
if not i would not get so much careless & tht fucking simple sum i would alr get it right!
hais. i am so stupid ...
in so many thgs.
who can cure my stupidness man!
hai!
i really hope my results will at least let me go t my dream course.
or rather poly.

& this few days alot had happen.
O & Some prob,
i am so confused over my own feelings.
i seem t have change like what my pig say
i no longer hav th heart or feeling t be sociable?
why do i change this way?
him?
hais. i really hope he is th one t let me hav my smiles back.
but i really have no courage for anything.
he too maybe he is saying th truth.
well thn all the best & what i could only do is t see your backview getting more further frm me.
tkcare & all the best to your results (:

Also all the best to all my friends
Winx ; Jojoyeee ; Xinru; JasmineTan ; Cindy ; Tiffany ; minshan ; Vivian ;
Claudia ; Raymond ; Chunhow ; Yongjie ; Aaron ; Eugene ; Yancong ; Malay friends in my class ; Joelle ; Xinlei ; Wenbin. && all my friends laa (:
hahaha. tkc everyone. Best luck & Jy (: