MERRY XMAS EVERYONE.

eve, 24.12.08
Eve was ton-ing at westcoast w cindy , winx. xinru&jo (:
meet up w sis & cindy first to buy groceries.
tent . & whatsoever for camp! hahaha.
raining again !! --"
reach imm. bought our groceries. thn head off to girl`s house to put them there.
thn waited for ru to come .
and we went so inspirational . making videos bla! lol. gr8 fun w girls.
and when its 11 plus ! Cindy boyf came to fetch us to westcoast !
Along the way , bought charcoal for our bbq . &
then . reached west coast at ard 12.
find spot Nd pitch our tent !
whahahahha. pitch pitch pitch ! winx was damn clever ! thanks to her , jo got to slp! xD
lol. & thn after that , we started to exchange our pressies !
Super lucky de ! ru and me keep choose our own presents
thn again! Ru choose till mine , and i choose till winx !
Ahhahah! i really like the tee mans !
Love it ! hahaa thanks girl (:
then . spend night eating , peng kan-ing. Hhahahah., mini bbq damn delicious & talks damn nice
nice night spend w my girls .except sleepy jo lol.
Till ard 5 . me & winx went to have a little personal talk at seaside.
i find out , w a calm mind. & good advice . i beginning to see the "Light"
i know what to do now (:
Really & i don think i will regret it . thanks sis ,.
thn went bac , talks a little w jo . and girl&jo pengkan marshmallow for us !
RU KOU JI HUA ! sibey nice (:
thn 7 plus , keep and went home ,
got a nice greeting from a exercise ahpek! MERRY XMAS & MORNING HE SAYS(:
thn 8 plus reach home . slp till now ! hahaha =x
sorry Li , i next time mi bu to you k !
merry meerry xmas to you !
love ya girl (:

LASTLY . merry xmas everyone ,

& to winx: thanks alot ytd . you made me realise alot. though you are not always there , but once you are there. everything seems more clear . i really love & cherish ya lots sis (:
tkcares. & study hard lah! loveeeeeeee ya (: wish ya find "him" soon (;

i embarked on a road of ...

crush , or not , i donknow.

bt one thing for sure.

i want to get you out of my mind.

thats 100% sure.

nothing wil .change my mind anymore .

Sometimes. i really do not know what i m dng .

chill lah . people says. but how many really knows how i m feeling.

cant move on , cant move on.

crush & disturbia is playing over and over again in my head.

cant seems to forget how lovely it seems to be,

everything .

but in the end, everything was nothing at all.

pretentence. how long can one pretend to be nice & all.

i m sick & tired.

sometimes i really just wanna be small nd nice nd everything.

================

24th dec.

Gng out t celebrate w girls.

Initial plans : Out to town wait for jo end work. wait for cindy boyf come drive us over t ecp

Ton there w tents and .. sleeping bag.

awwwwwwwwww. seems fun?

i m so bored now.

where are you ?

Things have been going so wrong. yet nothing is wrong.
& nothing is something.
its like i m living my life , you are living yours.
Nothing wrong right?
bt to me , there is something wrong. very wrong indeed .
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i m on the verge of insanity now.
everytime i m on the verge of giving up, somethinghappen & I BELIEVE AGAIN!
shit , don bullshit me & give me fake hopes Please.
let me off.. i m really sick and tired of being all alone. waiting for the right one to come , but all along . nothing but disappointment & hurts.
Please. i m just a mere girl i don deserve this.
fuck all this fate and destiny .
fuckyou . fuck them all! i hate this . fucking world i swear.
xmas is coming , but i dont feel at all excited or anything.
well. maybe . exchanging presents&living one night in a tent w girls keep me up abit
But . nothing else.
i m vexed , i m nothing , i donknow what bullshit am i talking but i m tired of life.
i m tired of hearing those couple talks everywhr.
No , i m not despo for a boyf !
or maybe . i just Want to find my right one.
or maybe . love is in the air. but not mine.
love , what the fuck! i hate it .
i hate those butterflies in my stomach when i m trying to talk to you. no more. no more of that now ,
i m not sure whats next , bt definitely surely . i will figure it out somehow .
please. i wna live my life happily like before.
please. let me off. i donwanna wait for the wrong person forever.
let me forget him please.

=================

Anw, ytd was family day ,
Woke up 8 in th morning . to prepare and everything.
then waited for daddy mommy to wake up.
and off we go.
head off w dad and bro to buy books early in the morning first. thn back home to change.
went to chinatown and slack ard w dad and bro thr first as mommy went up t office t collect her air tix .
after that. abit of tiffs. so went home have a rest & about 5. set off to eat again.
Ate beef hor fun & shop ard supermarket !
hohoho simple bt super fun!
super fun gossiping about fat womans butt . & pushing trolleys anyhow,
superly fun talking to guys w mummy!
advices from old usually makes us see the pict over again. and decides whats best.
but . well. i havent decide. & i stil donwant to. though what mommy says makes sense.
and . bleak future i should say.
maybe. not meant to be?
anw . round 8 . jo comes to visit w her cam !
upload picts and joke ard.
hahhah, I LOVE JOJO MOLE(:
hahahah, so damn cute hor jo?! lol
and round 10 she went home. fun day(:

SISTERS IS LOVE!

sweet things my sister does always make me wanna tears
like xr mak the video for us. all our memorable events &so.
Jo does all those things for us. ( I m lazy to mention ) But she always put me first !
Winx went to FARENHEIT CONCERT ! & yes though i didnt go !
she rmbed my love fr yan ya lun
& she video it down for me !
(: ohgooodness
just tell me . how many people can have such fortune to have pretty&great sisters like them!
no worries sister ! our .. sistership will last .. I hope is forever (:
mushy but is from the bottom of my heart !

Before i begins !
Here is one handsomeeeeeeeeee show you all for drooling purpose !
EEEEEEEEEEEEE ~ lol
Anw. his name is oliversykes ! sibey handsome only
*SCREAMS. (:
















& Tada my cute maid (:


Anw. went out tday , do stunt never go work ! hahaha =x
meeet up w jojo&her friend to do some last minute shoopping .
50 dollars gone !
--" but nevertheless.. all the things i bought i m satisfied.
hope sis & family tooo!

Tmr sibey excited !
Family day after so long !
(: whooolalaaaaaaaaa. longlong year 1 time !
yesyesyes. hopefully nothing go wrong.
like scarli shop hafway mommy shout at me. --" lol
or .. i suddenly got thing on?!
LOL. BU KE NENG MAN ! anyone , everyone , tmr i not freee k !
don ask me out ah!

Anw. i just had a chat w my dear sister winnie.
& yes. i felt like we are still as close as ever though we seldom meet nowadays
maybe. all of us have our own life to lead..
closeness is there. but i hope we meet up sooon.
catch up , la teh . all these
hope you can make time out for me okay!
miss ya sis (:
& I WANNA TELL JO SOMETHING !
sometimes i love you till i wanna kiss you . but sometimes i hate you till i wnna kill you!! murder you !
sometimes your words just hurt so much!
hhahaha, but neevertheless you are stil the best best best . among all (:
i love you babe (:
cheers t our near 5 yr friendship &sistership(:


Sometimes. you just gonna accept human change.
arghh i miss him so freaking much.
i realise . I cant forget you.
i believe. somedays. someone . all these will come.
i will never admit i lose until i try !

There might be a thousand things making you unhappy.

But . everyday , there should be at least one that made you smile (:

Anw.

Just a moment ago. i thought i m having a very bad day.
till i read someone blog.
till then i realize. i m thinking too much.
like people dont notice me , blabla * like i m the unluckiest person on earth,
yes don laugh or ask. but 1 hour ago. all i can think of is that.
But after blog hopping & i came across this girl blog.
i believe. everyday there should be something that made me smile.
& i found something that is worth my smile today.
and that is shopping & laughing at jokes w girl & sis , jojo (:

& Yes. some one. i thought of it again.
Reading that blog makes me think of what to do next .
but . i m having second thoughts.
what if . everything wont be as smooth as i thought it should be.
what should i do ?
But because i believe in miracle , i believe .
(:
childish and stupid . bt true. i believe.

its been long,
Long since i last went out w my family. all of them for a trip.
Longer since , i went out shopping w them .
suddenly. i felt that i m not a wonderful daughter to them ,
not a wonderful sister to my cutebrobrod. even though how much i claim to love him
I felt the huge dist between me & my family. even though how much i deny.
its there.
some change is irreversible. & i do not know how t make up to them.
i felt . so lousy .
why am i such a person.
& i even made mom cry.
i m terrible aint i?
shouldnt be living in this world.
i wish. i would be back to those days.
dad,mom, me & bro and wondergirl.

its beeen so long , so long since wonder left us.
you have been such a precious to our family.
bonding seeems much easier for us w you around
though you bites. though you scratch, though you are nt friendly at all.
bt . to us . you are always cute & cuddly.
always been thr for us till th last of your breath.
i`ve see you grow , like you seen mine.
being . always tgt .
Rmb . during primary school. after school i will be back telling you how much school is a bored & so on.
and you will be loooking me at those innocent eyes that seems to be telling me you know .
i told you . all about them. how they bully me . & yes. i know you are tearing w me,
wondergirl i miss you so damn frucking much!
i have so much more to tellyou.
when can i ever see you again.
R.I.P my beloved girl . i miss you forever.


i really wish to go back to those old sweet times.
no regrets ?
how easy to say , how hard to do.

Down-ness
if there is something i could do to make all this pain & trouble go away.
but there was nothing to it.

I felt so small. so damn tiny weeeny small.
nobody ever notices.
the feeling comes so insecure.
its like. i m a nobody.
nobody ever bothers how sad , how angry or happy am i.
truly nobody.
& yes i hate the feelings of left out , of not feeling impt.
to you * and yes. to my friends to others.
shit. --"
damn it. emo & i m hating the whole world
i hate myself more luhs!
--"
gosh. i m off!
shd be enjoying, yet i m emo-ing .
WHAT THE FISH!* =="

<> (:

Anw yes. i have been hanging out w the abv girl like almost everyday!!
yes. thats my girl. Cindy Lim lor!
hahaha. xD
well. my classmate &girlfriend you know!
of cos hangout w her lah!
she is the most steady friend i ever made.
thumbs up girl (:
& with her. laughter can fill up the whole day. of cos her day lah! cos i make her laugh mah!
correct not girl ?
lol.
Anw. more plans for us , girlfriends. to hang out after exams.

• Gym w girl , probably jo too.
• mahjonging w girl , jialing & irvin.
• movie w girl & jo right after exam . ( the two busy girls havent cfm --")
• chit chatting sessions w all my sisters. to catch up.
• butterfactory to support girl.
• xmas bash* ( did i describe correctly? )
• xmas gift exchanging.
• (: i would love girls night out though.

Anw. been hanging out since b4 common test starts.
studying always at starbucks & coffeebean
& i think the staffs must love us alot.
cause we damn support them. everytime buy huge choco or mocca frapucino.
heeees. anw. studied alot for commontestxzx this time.
Hopefully i can pass everything . except econs of cause =x
Anw, tmr gng t movie w girl & my bestbest sister. JOJOYEEEE
& before all the fun begin.
tmr is ecology paper
awwww. sadness. bt morn i m finding sis to make my nails over @ her house.
& yes. chit chatting session, you got alot t update me right. chou sis . =x
hahaha, and yes. poor sis is working like a Bull now. --
i m bored. and i m gng t slp now! byeeeee.



Beeen long since we last contact. agree?
did i ever pass by your mind? just by any coincidence ?
or for .. boring thoughts. did i ?
i yearn .. for .. some.thing.some.one.some.whr.

Y E S , i am gng t flunk my ECONOMICS
& MRS WONG IS SO GNG TO CALL MY DAD
f***k.
nothing goes right anymore. --"
anw. meeting girl study maths l8r.
hopefully my maths would pass , like give me B for everything okay.
well everything except . econs would be nice enough(:
i m nt greedy. hahahha
ciaos.

Night life.
seriously. what am i to you ? nor , who m i to care.
well. nothing more then a mere passer-by

Seriously , is there anything that wont change due to time?
Or will evrything eventually change.
I hate changes , well of cause good changes i don hate.
bt , why do everyone change ?
why dont thy be themselves , Regardless of characters or appearance.
yes, i know they wna chg appearance to appease ppl, to upgrade themselves.
bt . why do people char change too ?
from the way they treat people.. hais. its no longer the same .
sometimes close friends do leave you for like newer friends .
even how close both claim to be, but yes, like relationship, wil friends get tired of each oths too?
what is the definition of friendship ?
who can tell me? even yes a guy could change a friendship between two.
Too many questions change a close friendship toooo ?
so how do we define close sisters , buddies or friends?

Anw, pardon me fr the emotional post upstairs. too much happen.
& i found it better to get it out of me ?
hidden meaning yes? I hope Someone could somehow understand it .
anw . slacking w girl just now.
& Ahben help me w maths revision , Cfm A alrd mans.
tmr studying w classmates for SM&CEC
i hope i will be able to catch up.
3.0 Wait fr mama k (:

Yes. one more emotional paragraph --'
Seriously People tends to think more when thy gets older
.. i really wonder . Like what girl says.
" What would happen 2 years down the road? "
That really brought my lazy mind thinking.
will i be alrd having license , having beautiful car to drive to skl or
{ Bike? } well. will sisters be as close as ever ? will i still be thinking of the same him?
will fashion sense stil stay as like this --"
what would happen t all my friend?
yes. i really wonder.
well. i guess i can only wait for the answer .

(:

Girls NIGHT Out (:

as promised yeah, The photos of all my girlfriends.

and yes all are so gorgeous (:

* hahaah yes i heard some water droplets dripping though , don be envy i took picts w them uh! =x hahhaha,

well.

yes. so i will begin my non-crap post now.. ( ONLY NOW THEN BEGIN )

Anw, skl as usual ,

Mon i went to sentosa w girl & Jo though ,

yes , i promise photos will be upload l8r (:

And yes , Girl freaking woke me up at 6 in the freaking monday morning when thr is no class !

Motive : GO SENTOSA.

and yes , she is power man! woke me up liao still msg wake up the whole page --"

So woke up and prepare.

Damn cui --

my whole mind just wanna shut down and slp!

So anw took 963 and fuck , morning crowded w so many ppl sia!

wtf --"

and yes, heng one uncle let me sit . (:

bt well , girl and jo just nt as lucky, thy cant squeeze up the bus i m on, so yes. thy just wait for another .

& well. its amazing and quite ** funny to notice how ppl slp on bus.

some just in deep slp. hahahahha =x

no offence anw .

so yes. reach harbourfront FIRST ! and waited for them

bought things to sentosa & eat

& Yes. we suntan thr~ i almost turn to some roasted RIB or smth lik tt ,

s o , being hot & whatever alrd. Jo and me decide to dip in water .

(: COOLING I SAY & GIRL WAS ENJOYING HER SUNBATH all the while

anw. so till 12.3o , pack and went for bath,

thn back t skl. studytime (:

grab a bite w cliques b4 gng t *Empress class anw.

(:

-DAY ENDED -

Tuesday, 2dec.

I m late for class. cab t skl!

and yes. girl disturb me again this morning !

PS; girl i see its becoming a habit alrd ah , stop it !! --"

lol. kidding.

anw. Classs. and yes.

Cliques tday just discussed about those news that i duno.

so yes was very very attentively eating my fish&chips all the way.

Anw. i was like checking my hotmail & i saw things that disgust me totally. !!

Like ppl in norway & those icy cold countries.

Maybe they really have nothing to do. thy actually invented Killing seal as a sport .

Like pls , why is killing become sports now?! wtf?!

--" DISGUSTED. what has the world come to ?!

ppl like to commit suicide in a "new brainless way"

terrorist is out again , thanks to *////-/

& the fucking weather is getting more and more hot day by day ,

and NO MORE COLD WEATHER FOR WINTER AT HONGKONG?!!

why?!

is the world ending soon?

how is it gng t end.

wtf, i still do not want to die though yes i believe its ending soon

have been gng out w my girlfriends for the past week.

meet up and so,

forgot most of the date though, & yes.

fun , and fun and more fun w them

Date out w my pretties sister at first ,

Winnie & Xinru .

went to hoolland V to slack after my school ,

went to eat coffeeshop , fish and chip is the sexy yo mans(:

and yes talk alot to them bout him & him

hahaha diff him though.

ours * Him

well. thn went to cold rock camwhore and eat ice -cream .

yummy . love days lik thats.

then went back to panjang area and slack w ru as ,winx wanna go home slp.

pig ah !! --"

and yes. talk again.

sister talk, and i saw another side of my sis. the soft side (:

yes. i think after that night, my opion of this sis chg quite abit,(:

bt yes , in a good way .

went home after 2

feel cui yet happy(:

NEXT OUTING -

from what i rmb , yes it was w my dearest girl & Sister JOJOYEE(:

went to sunset way for jojo`s dad cake first.

Happpy belated bday uncle (:

thn went to town & yes i got myself a nice spag . &

we went snap al the way at town toooo.

haha,yes thy say w me , thrs never a day without photo,.

hahahaha, and i really did a unglam thing at the middle of orchard!

shit --"i hope no one see it though =x

and thn home sweet home by bus 190.

Next outing !

this time everybody is present (:

xinru , winx , jojo, cindy - okay i missed out ling =x

anw. went to town w ru & jo to meet up w cindy

& slack at starbucks , talking & stuffs

suddenly i felt like we girls have endless stuff to talk.

hahaha, anw, camwhored after we reach jojo block`s downstair,

fun and laughter filled the whole atmosphere.

jo`s dad claim to hear our laughter even at his room

that is like so exergratting, COS WE ARE 1 BLOCK AWAY FROM JO HOUSE . --

my god --'

i m sorry to jo neighbour anw if you all will see this post =x

lol. btw i m off to learn my maths alrdy.

cya ppls, ciao.

photos will be up as sooon as i recieve frm my girls (:

The hurt is so deep , i don think anything helps.

i wanna just leave .

Oh yeah, new post agn,
why ah ? bcos hor, i m here to announce to the whole bloodyboogy world that
: I HAVE A HUGE PIMPLE ON MY FACE NOW !!
i donknow lah.
pimple attack you know. jst so suddenly --'
suay only can. Suay only !

Anw, l8r gng out w my dearest girls. probably just out to slack for awhile (:
yes, i miss you lah girls .
talk talk talk. (:
anw, this is random k ! ( just feel like including in nia =x }

& i got nothing to post alrd lah,
shag-ed ..
ps : jo said shag aint a good word to use. Bt nehmind lah. haaaah xD SUPER RANDOM NOW.
OKAY OFF I GO TO LESSON. BYEBYE(:


To someone : i will never give up (:

Yes, postings.

what the fuck, i donknow what the fuck come over me .
i miss you , yes i do.
bt .. yoo know i dont dare to ask or hope for anything from you,
yes i feel inferior.
i know that deeep down, we wouldnt have any progress.
evrything is stopping now. Bt . why why why ? why cant i just fucking give up!
Fuck Man, i m emo nw.
yes, i m afraid of rejection, i wanna give up so i wont get hurt.
so i wont cry anymore.
i m really tired of crying.
loving you , was just a series of more &more hurt coming up,
hot&cold. i m really sick and tired of that alrd.
maybe i m really that far from you, til you dont even wanna make an effort to try.
yes. maybe tell me str8. i would know btr . & give up more easily .
treat me nice and i wont know anything!i donwan ==

aghhhh, somehow , one day everything will end, only earlier or later
i don deserve such a great boy like you, yes i know.
amazing yes?

Sometimes i really do not know whati m trying to do.

Yo people , so i have decide to blog again luhs(: ytd Night , just a normal friday night.

071108,

After skl , meet up w ling & ru at dover w cindy.

hahaha, cos me & cindy just need to attend the "laowoman" lesson only --"

hahha, thn head off to clarke quay to meet up w winx sister.

hahaha, { kelian de winx just wait lk 2 hours @ jo restaurant for us nia. --"}

ps hor sis =x ahahah anw, after meeting up , all of us head to pit stop !

Service thr is just goood only (: comfortable place to slack tooo .

Highly recommended k **

camwhored w my sis alot only lah !(:

will post the picts after sis send me (:

thn played game ,

team w sis while cindy teamed w ling,

Taboooo (:

hahaha, no one lose or win.

then have dinner and cont to play our game again!

1 ZHANG , 2 ZHANG ! hahaha excited matching dino games (:

did forefit as i keep retard thr --"

After that , ling went home , while me , winx , cindy & ru went to jo house ,

however. winx tk cab home froom thr as her momma niam her. LOLS.

thn meet up w jo,

went up to her house slack till 3 thn went home (;

cabby uncle just cute only !!

indian but know how t speak chinese ! AMUSING.

haahah (:

uncle says i always mix w malay ? why you know?

bcos i keep sia-ing =x lol (:

JUST SIA ONLY (:

Well, overall , i had a damn fun night out w my dearest girlfriends.

I WANT NIGHT LIKE THIS AGAIN K { OF COS W ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS AGAIN }

girlfriends ; jiale , Jocelynyee, WinnieTeo, Leexinru , CindyLim, Liu jialing

they are all i treasure (:

YO ALIVE HUMANS(:

well . i m here to post abt my fun kbox w cindy,Irvin(3gu)&weifeng(:
anw , it was like damn fun!
Anddddddddddddd know wht?!
My 3gu voice like JUST veryvery nice only(:
like the aska . omg, i think one day i can just become his fan lorrrrr.
awwwwwwwwwwww.
and cindy singing just very the feeling only lah. I cried lik --"
and . yes tts when the unfortunate thing happen-d
my contacts got like super dry, so i put like TAP WATER inside my freaking eye lah.
am i mad you tell me?
thn i go back .like shiok AND aft like 2 SONGS . it started to get freaking red & pop out lah!
mygod --"
bt thanks to wf(: REALLY THANKS LEH. he help me buy the solution .
hahahhaha. and tt save me from gng blind (: LOL
well. thn aft tt 3gu borrow me spects and i went toooot * all the way!
hahahaa, thanks all friends for your help and concern .
i regret crying seriously ,


Think over , yes i m thinking !
the right and wrong,
the one i love , & the one who loves me ,
i knw everything k . why hide? lik for fuck. i cn type out evrything now.

bt seriously to the one who love me ;
: i m nt worthy of you,
i m nt what you think i m ,
if tday you can be angry over such a small things i do , tmr you might find out more extreme secrets about me?
cn you tk it ? i love challenges , cn you give me?
i don like simple love , i like luxurious life , cn you give me?
pls. i m nt so simple like you think , just a girl that is satisfy w her life , good temper and so on.
i m not. that is all just mask.
maybe if one day you uncover my secrets deep down , you will know.
bt i hope you dont ever tk out my mask. i like it thr.
bt i still hope we are good friends.(:
we are , arent we?
forever is only for friend . i love you dearest friend.

To the one i love .
: 不确定我的执着能让你感动 .
i did alot of things alrd.
i alr make the first move alot of times alrd.
i donknw what more i can do ?
can you tell me?
wake me up if that is a dream , JUST FUCKING TELL ME ,
BOONJIALE YOU NO CHANCE COS YOU ARE JUST TOO INSIGNIFIGCANT.
I DONLIKE YOU!!
just like that, i will know what to do.
seriously.
i like you more after . all
and , yes of cos i wouldnt miss any chance t be w you,
bt of cos if you don like me. i would go away ..

(: yes i know wht i m saying, people dont bother to comment okay.
- unless yes , you are one of the above i have mentioned?

Anw , bjl is off. and i swear somedays i might just get some heart attack =x

and yes ,

i just hate myself and the whole bloody fucking world now.

god is unfair , i know );

Economics like sucking my brain cells away Now !
Shit . save me anyone ?

WELL. decided to post since i m like so damn shag ,
I think my blog is like soon sooon gng to close down man.
Dead shit .
Anw , 29Oct2008 .


I got a damn huge surprise ytd(28oct) . well nt really good if i shd say .
This time i lost it . good&forever .
well. bt i guess it will all get better in time ,
(:
& dk . you got smthg right again k. so you arent useless , atleast you cn read my dumb mind --"

Tday which is like 29oct.
I am late for meeting irvin again! =x
Oops . i m always late lah.
Shd learn how to be punctual & i think i shd put this on my wishlist l8r so i could achieve it ! *smirks ;D
anw. lik i say i was late & of cos we were late for class.
But being a good soul , of cos irvin forgive me .
& Maths Quiz tday.
SHIT . I M SO GONNA FLUNK LAH.
parabola and so on?! WTH MR FOOO. I REALLY DON LIKE YOU. =="
i want t pass maths lah,
failing maths made me feel so useless.
I want to get 3.9 GPA .
uhoh =x too high hor.
hahhaha =D well. i very shag lah tday.
forgive me if all these is crap cos i m lik damn cui tday =="
k lah. i shall ciao now . (:
tkc readers. bbb(:

Yayneesss to being A-L-I-V-E & H-E-A-L-T-H-Y (:

i saw a damn touching show on chnl 8 Just now !

finally singapore shows are making big improvement & finally it is worth seeing .

Anw , its abt reality show that feature those less fortunate family in singapore.

& for tday eposoide they are featuring on a family of 4 siblings , & sadly three of them are retards . The only normal one are protective over them & don let them to be independent hence all the burden of tking care and earning money was his responsiblity .

And seriously i think this kind of brother damn goood (: bt thy do nt know hygiene ,

ND seriously , i do not know singapore still got Families in this kinda poor state.

fuck
! i should seriously read And see more of the News! ):

i wannnaaa be volunteeer lah! Bt toooooooooo bad i m afraid of cockroach & small little pest

& after watching this show i find that my problem is too small to be a problem !

BEST IS ME & MY WHOLE FAMILY ARE STILL HEALTHILY LIVING (:

Bt well, sometimes i do get emo & suddenly think of all the negative happening

Like tday, well definetely not a good day i shd say

i spend lik Half a day thinking of him & wht the fuck is happening to us?

everything is like turning frm bad to worst .

& i just think of him like a fool .

i tried to walk away , bt i could not help turning back to see if there is any glimpse of hope .

do you understand how much i fall now?

i feeel so damn fuck up now ,

imagine i ... am lik helplessly watching you and me distant away.

Fuggg . cn you pls at least tell me smth?

Like byebye? or smth at least to let me know you are here before?

& seriously friends and sister are nt helping at all !

Thy are just encouraging me to give up give up give up !

fuggggggggg. I Donwan to give up wout tryin lah! bt i lost my courage somehow .

& even i donwan to give up , i must,

bcos i feel so damn inferior .

i just fall a little tooo deep

Bt i m sure it will all get btr in Time .

Amazing or not ?
there are two different sides even if only is a similar face in that one person .
can you all seee the different face in me ?
hahahha.
made this discovery thanks to my sister ruru (:
met up w her this afternoon as Cindy wanna pass her paper&help notes . ( Hope it will help her out ) Good luck for Os my sisters ; Ruru & jojo(:
Anyway. met up w sis Jo to support her Os.
And i m the early bird tday !
Waited for her & have a lil lame chat to soothe her nervous-ness , b4 she went for th major exam .
hope it helps (:
& Hope all People that are tking Os this yr will score well (: jy ..

& i really donknw why i think tooo much.
everything , yes , Noted that is everything beeen a fuck for me .
i hate . i hate this world , hate that everyone is so materialistic , hate that i m brainless
hate that whatever i do dont seems right,
hate that whoever i love wont love me back ,
Hate that i have to listen comments everywhere , Hate that people everywhere getting like shitty attitude,
HATE THAT I CANT BE ME ! i must chg & chg & fucking chg more to adapt to th now envt .
hate that my mom cant born me with sharp nose , big eyes & strong teeth.
arghhhh, i m unsatisfy with alot of things.
i donknow how to calm down.
the feeeling sucks. & i think maybe a slp will be btr for me now?
. ciaos thn . will be back.


why . why you?
inferior was everything that spelled for me.
i hated that feeling
i hated that you are like the butterfly , sky , beautiful things & i m nothing
i hate to feel inferior to you.
fuck
!

I AM BACK !
Not to post..
But to ... Wish my sisters RuRu & Jojo all the best for their O levels !
of cos to my other friends that are tking Os and Ns this yr
!
i seriously feeelt nthg to post
! except ...

YES ! i abs love my new Hairstyleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
wlao eh ! ((:
nd my modules are like interesting this term ! Hope i cn get GPA 3.0 !!
hahahaha.

& last but nt least !
Jojo !! you the best lah .. best best best !
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU (:

HEYO , people ,
just a short post , will pst up my china trip sooooon,
might be after this weeeek .
neway , i enjoy my hols. (:
Thanks to my momma ! (: however. i do have some bad news.
):
saddening.

Also , its amazing.
so amazing how karma goes.
i swear never t laugh& do stupid things again .
Children out thr. listen t momma and never laugh or say th less fortunate.
karma will somehow find you , ):
and yes i will be goood girl frm now on ,
(: w sisters persuading nd so on. i guess i can be sucessful .


only you can make those words come alive.
bt sorry was all you say .

Hello everybody !
make changes in my blog, cancelled some links & (:
yes i am happy .

Finally , i wanna make something clear to someone out there.
Just because you are w him , doesnt mean i would go check your blog now&then ,
and seriously , pls don think such a big deal out of yourself ,
you are seriously nothing t me, you don affect me Moreover Change my Life.
so don think too high k !
in my eyes you are just a Liar
.
( you know well what you preach and what you didnt done (: }


Okay , anw On a happier note ,
i m employed again , this time helping out my mom in ASA. (:
easy money i should say, cept for some irritating customer that think so big of themself ):
anw , ytd
13 Nov.
i celebrated Mooncake festival w my - lovely lovely sisters
and yes , we played candles, and ti Lantern.
camwhoring ,
fun like hell lah!
lots of laughters. & it always happen when i m w my fabourite girls !
shall update when i got th photo from xinru !
ai ni readers. ByeBye. (:

someone : Do you believe in fate?

Dedication - Sisters.
Enjoy a short video made by my Xinru,my preetyy sis before i go on .

Sisters of mine Consisting of Leexinru, Jocelynyee & Teowynnee

Yes, some have been w me since sec 1 like jojoyee & wynne , & Ru she came in till sec3 .

yes , and thy walked w me through Now ,

no one left,

though all of us have things of our own t do . our own group of cliques and so ;

bt we still find time for outings , for our every birthday tgt .

plans for special occasions tgt!

yes , though sometimes we have our rough patch & sometimes we might accidentally ignore each others.

bt deeep , yes i know this sistership will be forever standing strong no maatter how long or far we will go ! yes i believe so.

i stil remember vividly how all of us become friends and sisters

yes , initially, i hated them when we first saw each other.

due to jealousy , terrified and some other feeelings .

and this is how fate plays a part.

it accidentally made us into best of all friends!

and yes , rmb last time in sec sch time , whn i have staybacks. sometimes you all would wait for me& go home tgt

recess we will tk turns buy food on days. and normally xinru would do it.bcos she is superb in cutting queues . and usual i would be one that buy drinks .

and yes , till Os is over. we have job of our own , bt during all th freetime , i rmb i would see th usual nice, friendly smiling face of yoo all .

& whenever i have troubles or problem , you all would help t solve for me though you all find it a chore. bt you all would still help me &not t see me fall.

Whenever i felt bad , you all would all be there for me , drying my tears & comforting me saying everything will be fine esp jojoyeeee that shares most of my tears w me.

you all would be there teaching me how t be a good girl and such . as usual " zhong yan ni er " bt i really chg alot after knowing all of you (:

i m thankful for all of you & every memories we share. bt thr will be more t come ,

i swear (:

A song best tht describe sisters (:

CelineDion-Because you Love me

For all those timesyou stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith,

you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love

I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place

because of you

You were my strength

when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'cuz you believed I'm everything

I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved me

Heys peepos .
how many days never post liao ah?! hahaha not long ago leh!
anw. beeen busy wrking lik a beee this few days!
& yes i clinch a deal tday!
yes i m duper super urber happy! Thank you leh auntie !
hahaha (:
and yes , my job is t promote chinese tea ! bt some of them are nice even i don drink tea i also think nice ! wooohooo!
anybody , got drink come junction8 find me buy k (:
hohoho. ai ni mens!

Anw. tday went ru sis hus make mooncake again!
and i did some for shunxing (:
thn keept some for family toooo!
my hus full of mooon cakes now , Lol
anw ! fun luhs! i like making mooncake w them (:
lol.
bt yes i m still gonna buy th durian moooooncake!
(:

There are certain things i wish t post out i knw i shouldnt ,

i know yes , certain things forcing aint gonna make it right.

i know i m irritating , bt do you know tht love is very unexpected ,

crept up unknowingly. and yes i dont even know about it .

i never know that i would ever like you, and did so many things for you lik a stupid bloody foool

you are forever th sky , & yes no matter how hard or how much i chg ,

physically or mentally .

i would never be high enough for you .

you`re just like a bird soaring high , and i m just like any normal shit on th ground.

sorrry i didnt know ,

7 things i hate and love about you (:

:readers don guess. you all will never be right (:

My special dedication t someone special t me (:

Wenjiale & Jojo yeeeeeeeeeeee .
4 years down the road , we shared a similar bond called , th best sistership.
you are always there for me when i am down, Always ther t share my sorrowful thoughts
always there w tissues t wipe away my tears
always there t hear my revengeful thoughts , & share opoions w me ,
always there t make me laugh ! no matter what.

when i m in love , you are there for me toooo.
helping me through all those embarrasing moments , helping me cope w my negative thinking
when i m out of love , you are there too.
giving me tissue without fails. making me laugh, scolding those bastard for me ,
i rmb your first vuglarity , was for me
i m deeeply touched. (:
truly ,
when i got my difficult times. you helped me got rid of those "ants"
i know its hard for you babe!
not t forget , you are always giving in t this sistership!
it makes me wondering sometimes.
are you my real sister in our past life?

4 yrs. we chg ! from ..adolescene teeenagers t matured ladies.
bt 4 yrs. nothing chg in our sistership! cheeeeeeeeeeeers!
i wish you all the best for your future endeveours.
and rmb ! you leave your footprints as deeeep as , he left his. even deeeper i guess
. sistership shall go on till we die ! shall we ?
(: love ya sis !
rmb , i m always here if you need someone? or tissue?hahaha
ciaos ,

Anw , thanks t my other sis toooooooooooo.
Winnie and xinru ! i love you both , not lesser tooooo (:
kisss kiss *